Jenlisa Drabbles

empty houses

Lisa’s hunched over the sink, hurling most of yesterday’s dinner down the drain.

“I don’t understand why you won’t let Chaeyoung help you?” She says quietly, most of it drowned out by grunts that only grew more frequent and louder. “Why the fuck would you drink at seven in the morning?”

Of course, she knows the question would be left unanswered—like the others she’d asked before.

Lisa turns on the tap and splashes cold water against her face, the sound echoes out into the kitchen between them where it fills spaces that shouldn’t be there in the first place.

“I’m sorry.”

Somehow the words reverberate throughout their home despite being whispered.

“Lisa—”

“I’m sorry.” Lisa runs shaky hands through her hair. She has never seen her like this,

“It gets better, love.” She takes tentative steps closer, but stops by the counter. Taking in the way Lisa avoids looking at everything around her and chooses to settle her gaze on the cluster of broken duck ceramics they’ve spent the whole of summer three years ago painting by hand.

“I’m trying,” Lisa finally says, “I’ve been trying for weeks and Jisoo says it should get easier but it doesn’t.” her voice taut, “It only gets harder, Jennie.”

She lets the realization settle between them.

“I can’t bring myself to change anything, you know?” Lisa turns to look at where she’s standing. There’s a momentary kindness in her voice that gets Jennie smiling. “I know how much you loved sticking stickers on the fridge even though I keep saying it’s tacky and you’ll probably regret it someday.”

“I still don’t, love.”

“I just want to keep things as they are, is that stupid of me?” Lisa slumps to the floor and smiles. Even though Jennie can see it doesn’t reach her eyes at all.

“I think it’s brave of you to go at things at your own pace, you know?”

“Is it stupid of me to want to see you everywhere?” Lisa whispers,

She moves closer, wanting to tuck stray hair behind her ear where she can see Lisa’s eyes better but knows she can’t.

“You should let me go, Lisa.”

“I love you.” comes out broken, like the very thought of it pains her.

“I know.”

“I shouldn’t have—” Lisa buries her face in her hands and every word that comes out right after has her grasping at hands that can never hold her again. “I shouldn’t have let you drive that night.”

“I shouldn’t have come here and stayed,” She finally whispers, hoping that somehow it gets through to Lisa.

“I don’t want to say goodbye to you.”

“At some point you would have to,” Jennie whispers, even though she knows Lisa can no longer hear her. “I guess I should’ve known that saying hello to you this way hurts just as much as saying goodbye.”

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This is a very messy drabble and cringey and I will probably delete this or edit it or Idk. I just needed to get a certain  weird sensation off my chest, also because I heard: of Monsters and Men's Little Talks play from my neighbor which made me think of this.

Anyway, i do hope everyone's enjoying their week. Take care 💙