Until My Final Breath - Max Verstappen (I)

T H I R T E E N

TW: Accident, hospital

Joy's POV:

"I can't believe you're doing this to me, Joy!" he screamed.

God he was mad. And I didn't even blame him for it, but he just has to accept that I didn't choose him.

"After everything I've done for you!"

Look, the moment I discovered his feelings for me, I just panicked. Not because I didn't want him to love me, but I didn't want to choose between the 2 most important boys in my life. I love them both so much and I don't want to break one of them.

"Max, please stop shouting! I'm scared!" And I wasn't even lying. In all these years I know him, I've never seen him so angry. Not even in the moment he beated my bullies up. Never.

"Why don't you just choose my side? Why?!" he asked.

"Because I love Lando. And I don't want to break his heart."

"Oh, but breaking mine isn't a problem for you?"

I didn't have a good comeback for that. He had a point, but I just wanted him to accept the fact that I wanted to be with Lando. I really wanted to. I even thought about the fact to date Max behind Lando's back, but that wasn't a good option. He would discover and then I would loose him. And I wanted to stay with him forever.

I stood there in silence, staring at the floor.

"I promised I'd love you until my final breath, Joy."

Yesterday evening everything went perfect. We watched some Netflix, ate pizza and fell asleep around 10. But this morning after breakfast, it all went wrong. Again. He asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend, but I said no. Not because I don't love him, but I love 2 persons. And I don't want to make a choice yet. I love Lando too, but I don't know who I love more. And yes, at this moment I was telling him that I chose Lando, but I wasn't sure. 

I was thinking about a good answer on the last thing he said, but then he did something I didn't expect him to do. He stood up, and ran away. He stepped in his car and there he went, he drove away full speed. I wasn't going to go after him, he'd comeback after he reflected what he said. 

We were 3 hours later and there was still no sign of life from Max. I didn't want to panic (yet), but somewhere in my body I felt that something was horribly wrong. 

I was making a cup of tea when I got a call that confirmed my feeling: 

"Hello?"

"- Hello ma'am. Are you Joy Devreese?"

"Yes, I am. Can I help you with something?"

"- I'm Dr. Renson from the hospital of Bruges. I need to tell you something but I think you should go sit down."

Shit, why would they even ask me to go sit down? What are they going to tell me?

"I'm sitting on my couch right now. Can you please tell me what you want to tell me?" I asked, with a tone of fear in my voice. 

"- Well half an hour ago a victim of a car crash was brought in here, and you were the emergency number. Do you know a guy named Max Verstappen?"

"Euh yes that's my boyfri- euh, best friend. Is he okay?" I asked with a shaking and cracking voice. 

"-Well at this moment he's having surgery, so I don't know anything about his condition. Is there maybe a possibility that you can come over now?"

"Yes sure! I'll be there as quickly as possible."

"-I'll be waiting for you here, so we can take a look at his condition together."

"Okay, thank you doctor."

I put my phone in my back pocket and started running towards my car. I jumped in and drove as fast as I could to the hospital. I think I got at least 7 speed tickets, but they're all worth it. The condition of my best friend is a million times more important that some stupid tickets. When I got there I ran inside where the doctor was already waiting for me. 

"Where is Max? Is he okay? Holy shit this is all my fault." I said, and I started crying. I really didn't want to loose my best friend,  so I was super scared about what the doctor would tell me. "He's in his room Joy, and he's okay. He broke his foot and needed surgery for that, but he'll be fine. You can go see him if you want to." the doctor said, and I nodded. He walked me to Max's room and opened the door for me so I could go in. 

When I walked into the room, I saw that he was sleeping. I sat down on the chair next to his bed and took his hand in my hand. I felt tears in my eyes, and some of them rolled down my cheeks. He looked so vulnerable, yet so peaceful. I took my phone to tell my parents that he would be fine, but when I looked at my screen I saw hundreds of notifications. Missed calls, messages, DM's on instagram but also a few notifications from news apps about Max's accident. So I guess everyone knows about his crash. After I send my parents a message, I opened Instagram and I saw I had some messages:

danielricciardo Hey Joy, any updates about Max? 

joydevreese Hey Daniel. Yes he's in the hospital and just had surgery. He hasn't woke up yet, but the doctor said that that could be any minute now. He broke his foot but he'll be fine. 

danielricciardo Ahh good to hear that he'll be fine! How are you feeling? 

joydevreese Tired but relieved. We had a huge fight this morning and I kinda feel guilty for it, because if we didn't fight he would've probably stayed home and all this wouldn't have happened. 

danielricciardo Please don't blame yourself for this Joy! I'm sure Max also doesn't want that. He ran away so it's his own fault. 

joydevreese But I'm kinda scared that when he wakes up he'll be angry at me for this. 

danielricciardo Kiddo let me tell you one thing, he would never do that. He loves you. And not as a friend, but as something more than a friend. He would die for you, and you just don't seem to get it :I I know that you probably see him as a friend, but give him a chance. You'll see that he loves you more than anything else in this entire universe. The way he looks at you with those sparkles in his eyes, it says enough. But if you don't want to, than it's your choice and he'll always respect that. But think about it, pleaseeeee??? For me, for Max. Please??

joydevreese I'll think about it. Thanks for the extra info Dan! :)

danielricciardo No problemo French frie :))

joydevreese *BELGIAN frie 

danielricciardo yeah whatever. 

I was definitely gonna think about it even harder now Daniel told me this. 

But somewhere deep in my body, I felt like my heart had made a choice which boy it belongs to...