A D U L T || A conflict

13. Sensei

Why am I sandwiched between these men? I don't know. Am I enjoying it? Yeah. I can't deny that.

Nanami-san without a moment's hesitation removed himself from the situation.

He fixes his shirt and tie. Uncomfortable with what happened.

"I am sorry Y/n. I can't accept your feelings. It's better for you to date someone around your age like Yuji-kun or Megumi-kun."
He offered me a hand to get up.

Oh, that's how it is. He doesn't see me as a woman. Not even as an adult. He thinks that my feelings are just a childish crush. I'll always be a kid for him won't I?
So much so that he thinks that I should date one of the only two friends I have.

That hurt more than I thought it would.
I reject his hand and when I was about to get up myself I was pulled by Gojo-sensei.

"Gojo-san let Y/n go."
Nanami-san was about to scold Gojo-sensei and separate us when I stopped him.

"Are you for real Nanami-san?"
I refuse to let go of Gojo-sensei's hand.

Even he was amazed by that.

"Y/n-? What are you?"
He was confused by my actions. As he should be.

I tug Gojo-sensei's shirt, he takes the hint and brings his ear closer to my mouth when I cup his cheeks and kiss him. He was taken by startled at first. But took the bait and kissed me back. He tasted sweet like strawberry and milk. He always had a sweet tooth and this made it even better.

Nanami-san was stunned. Like he just witnessed a murder.

"You just rejected me. What makes you think I want to see you now?"
I pull away looking at Nanami-san licking the remaining of his saliva off my lower lip.

"Gojo-san isn't good enough for you Y/n. He's the worst- he can't give you the happiness you want! We both can't. . .
He's your teacher and I am a mentor. . .Y/n this is wrong. That's why you need to let it go and give up"
He yanks Sensei's hands off my shoulder.

He tries to tell me how bad that man is for me when he's forgetting he's just as bad. No, even worse in my eyes right now. The more 'righteous' he tries to be the further I drown. So what I'm doing is just immoral and awful? Hah.

"I don't want to hear that from you!
You lead me on to believe that someday. . .even if it was not now you'd let me be someone special to you. And this is what you do? After butting your way into my problems comforting me and then pushing me away!? Was it all just out of pity!? You felt that I was someone that desperately needed saving didn't you Nanami-san!!!???"
I don't want to say this. I don't but I need to. I don't want his eyes full of pity for me. I'm tired of those eyes. I don't need fake warmth. If he wants to act nice to me even after hurting me and pretending my love for him isn't real then I don't want him.

Don't cry Y/n.

"Y/n- I never said that I didn't care about you I just-!"
Nanami-san who was concerned by my sudden outburst tried to place his hand on my shoulder to stop me from screaming but his hand was brushed off by Gojo-sensei.

"Stop pretending Kento. You heard her. Leave."
He hugged me from behind. His long arms linked around my waist. It felt like a layer of warmness, the type of comfort I could cry into, something I had felt before with Nanami-san a long time ago.

"I can't leave Y/n to you Gojo-san. Especially when she's not stable-"
He sighs and opens the door waiting for Gojo-sensei to leave with him.

"Fine. Stay here. But that doesn't mean I care about you or what you see."
I lead Gojo-sensei to the bed and lie down unbuttoning my shirt without taking my eyes off Nanami-san.

He leaves. He slammed the door shut.

Gojo-sensei hovers over me on the bed. Placing his hands on the bed next to my shoulders.

"Am I a part of your revenge?"
He bites his lower lip still looking at me undress with no hesitation. His eyes were fixed on my lips.

"No."
I stop unbuttoning my shirt halfway.

"I like you Gojo-sensei. You aren't my revenge or backup plan."
I take his palm and kiss it while maintaining eye contact.

I wasn't lying. I felt the same way about him as I used to feel about Nanami-san. Maybe even more. . .about him.

He's never been unclear of his feelings towards me. I was the dumb one. Thinking he was fooling around with me when he was the only one who was honest with me. Yet I let my emotions get the best of me and confessed to Nanami-san when I knew he would reject me. And all this time Gojo-sensei was there for me. There was something about him that kept drawing me back to him even when I liked Nanami-san. I can't pretend anymore.

"You're the only one who loves me for the way I am Gojo-sensei. I'm sorry for running away all those times. Please let me love y-"
He presses his thumb on my lips to prevent me from speaking.

"You can tell me the rest after we're done Y/n. I-I don't think I can hold back anymore."
He was acting whiney and desperate but it sounded so sexy because of that voice of his. I look down at his thighs that made their way in between my legs. His pants had a huge bulge in them. It looked so big that even I could tell it had to be painful to suppress that.