Always and Forever

CHAPTER 3 MORE HEARTBREAKS

Sidharth was more than furious. Not only she didn't ask him to come to the party , she didn't even bother to tell him that she is going with someone else. They were both busy the whole day. No texts and phone calls were exchanged. He was super busy. He just came to know about that when he was going back home and a notification popped up in his mobile screen.
"sensational shehnaaz looking wonders in the launch party" and the picture said it all. There she was looking super pretty with another man's hand around her shoulder. He called shehbaaz to know about the party and he told sana said yes to her co actor when he asked her to accompany. He was more angry at the fact that he was not knowing about all this. To add fuel to his anger , more news flashed linking them together. "Sana with his co actor ..together as dates at a party" "are they really together" "cutest couple of the party" not that all these things matter but it still hurts to read such things about the person you love. Moreover he knew she did it deliberately. He didn't even call her and called it a night.
She knew he would be super angry at this stunt she performed. But his no reaction made her more anxious. She wanted to call him but her ego got hurt that he didn't even tried to coax her after the last night drama. Afterall she is his little baby. How can he just ignore that fact. Even she called it a night not bothering about her name being linked to another guy.
A week passed by but still they didn't contact each other. He was pissed. She was hurt. Both were angry. And above all they were super busy. 18 hours shoot , dress trials , photoshoots.. everything was very tiring. Their hurt was deepening. As they say communication is the the key. If this key is lost .. the griefs and hurts remains locked up increasing the burden.
It was the first time that they didn't talk to each other for such a long time. Even in their busy schedules they used to find time to call and text and sleep snuggling. But their busy schedules were like excuses to their ownselves.
She wanted nothing but just for him to coax her and make her feel a little special. He just wanted to show his anger.
Almost a month passed.
She was way more than restless but her work composed her up. He was way more angry now. Is she the same shehnaaz who wouldn't stay away for even a moment and demanded attention every now and then, he thought. How can she be changed so much. She doesn't even care now. Its been a month and she didn't even text him. May be she is enjoying her new life. The life of a famous star she always wanted. She achieved her dreams and now may be she is exploring her life. His hurt was deepening his anger. She had similar thoughts. Maybe he doesn't care now. Not once he tried to pamper her. It wasn't about ego now. She was hurt. Beyond any words. She wanted to see if he even loved her.
She was trying on some outfits for a shoot when her phone beeped. It was a common friend of Sid and her. He called her to invite her to a party. She knew sid would definitely attend the party. She denied. In actual she was very busy. And secondly she didn't want to enjoy anything. Kabir blackmailed her emotionally about how party would be incomplete without shehnaaz ka hungama. She didn't want him to notice any problems going between him and sidhaarth, she simply said she will try if she gets free. He replied to that if she is really busy its okay but if she gets free she has to come for the sake of their friendship. She agreed. It was not like she and sid were divorced and it would be awkward. She actually wanted to face him now. Also it was a month she hasn't seen his pretty face. She missed him. His touches, his voice, himself!
Still trying on more dresses , she suddenly saw a golden shimmery one piece that sidhaarth would never allow her to wear in public ever. She tried it on. She looked breathtaking beautiful  and her hottest version in that dress. It ended at the mid of her thighs and was backless till her waistline in a v shape at the back. She asked her dress designer to click her pictures in that dress. She clicked about 4 to 5 pictures flaunting her body, looking hot as hell, showing her smooth silky back and shining thighs. After clicking, she rejected the dress. She knew sidharth would never like it.
The party was hot and happening. Many of their mutual friends were there. Booze, dancing and food was adding to the party vibes. Sidharth met all their friends. His eyes were stuck on the door. He wanted to see her. He knew she would come. Still he didn't want to talk to her. He was feeling she was not his shehnaaz anymore because his shehnaaz would never let months pass by and not call him. She was someone else now. It was almost 3 hours since party started, but she was no where to be seen. He got tired of the party and wanted to leave but kabir insisted him to stay a little longer. He settled on a chair near the bar.
And she entered.
Looking beautiful in a long red gown having a slit near the left leg and little strips of sleeves on the shoulder, she warmly met all of them. Sidharth stood up from the chair and went towards the group. Not making it awkward in front of others , she gave a smile to him saying "hi sidharth" and side hugged him. He complied smiling and hugged back.
She started chirping loudly to kabir how she came managing her work, how super busy she was. Sidharth was in awe of his girl smiling brightly. She was pulled by a friend to the bar where sid sat again. She ordered a drink and sat there only. Everbody was around there only fussing about dancing and making the party happen. Sidhaarth strictly denied and no one again dared to ask. All were pushing sana to dance floor but she was again and again using excuses that she is super tired. Everyone started dancing and the music went a little louder. Sid pulled up his phone and started scrolling. She noticed but suddenly the punjabi beats were on and she couldn't just stop herself. She put her right leg over her left knee exposing her milky legs and unbuckled her heels and went on the dance floor, sid admired her, dancing her heart out on her favourite punjabi songs.
They were both stunned how gracefully they ignored each other. This was not them. The whole party got over and they didn't even talk for once. Somewhere in the back of her mind she thought they will clear things in this party but nothing happened.
She went out of the hall and started to book a cab as she came directly from set. Almost everyone was leaving. Sid came out and saw her waiting outside. Ofcourse he is gonna take her , no doubt about that. Even she expected the same that sidharth will drop her. Before he could ask, one of his female friend came and ask him to drop her nearby. He just couldn't say no. No one can say no if someone asks upfront! After that he opened the passenger seat door to ask sana to sit but that girl came swiftly and sat on the front seat. That girl knew sid and sana might go together so she just politely asked sana to come inside. But she was hurt again. How could he not ask her. And he let another girl sit on the front seat .. what does he think I will sit on the backseat with him with another girl. Shehnaaz denied smilingly saying her cab has already arrived as she had to go back to shoot. Sidharth was also angry at her. How can she not go with him! Who is she! Is their fight so big? He was super angry now.

Shehnaaz came back home with a little more heart break. She uploaded her picture in that sexy golden dress knowingly that it will irk sidharth. Indeed she was looking super hot.
He saw that and became more angry at her. He was not able to believe in this sana. He knew she did it to hurt him. He did some thinking that night that he won't call her now as this is not the shehnaaz he fell in love with. If this is what she became , he will not talk to her. Now he was also hurt.
She was restless now. It was enough. She cannot put up this mask anymore. She needs him. Why is he not coaxing her. Is she not important for him now! Now she was also angry.
Their shoots were almost getting over now. All the projects that were lined up were now almost finished. Finally they would get a little rest. For about 2 weeks no work was lined up. The next project clicked in her mind. It was with sidhart. The short series they both promised to star in with kabir as the creator. She totally forgot but she was happy finally she will be with him. She was exhausted with herself now. She wanted her sukoon.
He was in bed thinking of 2 weeks later when finally both will spend days together although for a shoot. He was less excited now.
She was lying in her bed when her phone rang. It was unknown number. She thought of Him. She got really excited when she came to know it was none other than her favourite punjabi singer.. the sensational Punjabi singer she was a big big fan of. He called her personally to meet up as he was in town and he said he would love to meet her as she was herself talk of the town now. She got soo excited to hang up with a person she once thought to be a big star only and now they will party together. Also she knew it will add fuel the heart breakings of sidnaaz. But she really wanted to go and if she would be in talking terms with sidharth, she would have convinced him anyhow. He would have never stopped her but would have gone along with her!
She shared this news with shehbaaz , he was way more excited but he also announced he has to go to Punjab due to some work.
"shehbaaz tuje pta tere bina nahi jaugi mai akeli .. sidharth ko pta lga na vo jaan le lega meri" she blurted out the truth.
"chal esa karte hai , mai bags sath le jauga .. 11 bje tk hi party krni hogi.. fir tum muje vahi se airport drop kr dena kyuki meri flight 1  bje ki hai raat ko"
"han ye sahi rhega"

She woke up next day in a little better mood as compared to last one and a half month. Almost two months , she thought.. they haven't talked since almost 2 months. How this happened. She craved badly for him now.
Shehbaaz packed his bags and in the evening they were all set to leave. Before going she thought to atleast inform sid anyhow about this catch up  as she will surely be captured by media and this will only hurt sidharth.
She thought of a plan. It was 9 pm. He would be surely having dinner with his mom. She called up his mom knowingly she will be sitting with him having dinner.
His mom smiled widely seeing shehnaaz's name flashing on her phone screen.
Sidharth noticed. Nothing happening were they talking about but suddenly sid's ears glued to her mom's phone when she asked sana "achha, kitne bje ki flight hai?"
Sid thought may be sana is going somewhere and she didn't even bother to inform him.
Then he just heard his mom saying " achha wow.. soo happy for you.. enjoy krna khoob."
He couldn't figure out the whole meet up thing that she wanted him to know. He just went to bed.
His mother knew something is not right as it is almost 2 months and sana never even visited once although she talks to her on phone. She understood sana called her to let sidharth know about the little party.
Sana had a great time partying. Shehbaaz was also there and 2 of other friends were also there. They did lot of fun. Some photos got viral on social media of her and all of them enjoying. There was a beer bottle in her hand although she didn't drink much, just a few sips of beer ..not even a pint. Unknowingly she was scared of sidharth that he would get angry on this. It was a fun picture. Sidharth saw the picture and it pinched him to the core. Not that she is with some one but she is having fun.. she is fucking having fun in her life without acknowledging the fact that they are almost breaking up !
Another picture he saw a little while later was of her being clicked at the airport (where she was dropping off shehbaaz.)
He was very angry now. He just threw his phone on the side and promised to himself that he will never talk again to her.
While dropping off shehbaaz , her fan moment expander as the singer insisted to accompany as he said sana should not go alone at that hour of the night. He was in his own car driving sana back home. He was just being a gentleman. NOTHING ELSE. Sana was scrolling her phone seeing the buzz of sana and aujla together. People were going nuts over the picture and were commenting go live again and again.
Even he said lets go live. They came out of the car and stood in front of the headlights and the live was so full of fun and laughters. They sang some songs together and read some comments. One comment was " sidharth ko pta hai tum yaha ho" she laughed out loud that how well her fans know everything about them! She came back home after a fun live session.
She wanted to talk to sidharth. She thought as usual she only has to talk to him .. he will never take the first step. She was so disappointed. For the first time she expected something from sidharth but he just upset her. She wanted him to just call her ..that alone will make her feel special. But may be this was too much to ask for. She was done for now. She knew a little more separation from him will only make her breaths difficult.
She called him. He ignored. She sent a text finally " mai ghar pe hoon bilkul thik.. late aai thi but abhi ghar pohch gai hoon"
She knew he would wonder if she is okay. He saw her live and was again super angry and also came to know she is in Mumbai only. He didn't read her text and slept.
She was hell bent on talking to him now and thought of calling in the morning and directly meeting him and sorting all out.