Always and Forever

CHAPTER 7 LOVE AND CARE

Shehnaaz woke up an hour later and was not feeling her good self.
She went outside to maa and sidharth and slopped down on the sofa with her head in maa's lap. Sidharth almost felt her weakness. Maa was caressing her hair when she felt her forehead a bit warm.
"shehnaaz tujhe fever lag rha hai.. are you feeling okay?" she asked concerned.
"han maa thaka thaka bhi lag rha hai" she literally snuggled in her tummy.
He got up immediately and touched her cheek with the back of his palm. She was indeed warm.
"ab ye bukhar kyu yrr.. kya ho rha hai ye sb.. tu thik hai na .. ruk hum doctor pas chlte hai abhi" he shot all in a single sentence.
"nahi sidhaarthh.. kahi nhi jana .. muje sona hai bs .. mere body pain b ho rha hai halka sa.." she spoke tiredly.
"subah to thik thi shehnaz.. kya ho gya abhi .. kaha tha kuch kam mat krna .. sara din to dance krti rehti hai ye ladki.. weakness pehle se hi thi tabhi bola tha rest krne ko.. halka sa kaam bhi thka deta hai weak body ko" maa spoke eyeing her hopping nature.
Shehnaaz suddenly saw sidharth with narrow eyes and both remembered their tiring sessions of strenuous love making twice in less than 6 hours. She made a cute pout and he gave her a look that said I told you so!
Sidharth called the doctor and told her about shehnaaz's fever. Doctor asked if she is resting properly and hesitantly he shared their day's work in little detail almost blushing and sweating and rubbing his temples. Doctor laughed internally and advised nothing much but a simple paracetamol for fever and asked him to keep her warm , if she felt like shivering and If fever increases he can do some cold compresses and keep her hydrated. She told him it is not a big deal weakness and tiredness sometimes aggravate a fever and let her eat light only for some days. In the last she said " be gentle" and chuckled before hanging up. He felt so embarrassed that his cheeks fired up.
Rubbing his two fingers on his forehead , he entered his room and saw his baby curled up in the blanket. A strip of tablets lying beside the bed and half filled glass of water said she already had the tablet and was resting. He came close and kissed her hair. He has never saw her like this , she was always so strong. Little pains never bothered her. Although she does little tantrums of being sick sometimes to grab his attention but he always knew she was okay and now seeing her like this was heart breaking. He always wanted to keep her safe. She is the first girl he met for whom he is so much protective. He never wants to let a single scratch bother her. He always wanted to take care of someone. Being the youngest child he always was protected and given all the cares. But for once he wanted to take care and protect. He was always being mocked for his this virtue as all the other girls would take this as an insult to their individuality. But this girl.. she was all independent but still wanted his protection. She actually took his all cares and wanted him to care for her all the life. She was a 90s girl in the era of millennials. The girls he met before were actually his own age but always behaved like millennials but this girl who actually was a millennial never behaved as such. She always asked for the real things like his attention, care and time and not for club dates and parties to show off. He was feeling so blessed to get a real girl in this fakeness pool. She never believed in giving each other space crap because in true love no space is needed. This is the thing that has vanished in now called couples. They have their own definitions of love but love is just love. Nothing else. A person fallen in true love with someone never wants individuality. You want to blend in them. To be known as theirs is itself a satisfaction in love. This is not losing your ownself but getting consumed up in love. There is fine line in this but once you get it , you get to know the real meaning of love. We have faltered love by adding other emotions in it. We say care , loyalty, respect .. these all define love .. but in actual love is just love. All the rest are different aspects of love. When we say love is unconditional .. it's a big statement in itself.. we just need to read it properly. When we truly fall for someone we never care for any respect or loyalty. ofcourse it hurts but never changes our love for them. If it does, it never was love.
We compare love to our high peak of hormones which is just lust. Love is a pure emotion what a newly born child feels for its mother whom it has never seen but still cries when she is not around. This is love. All kinds of love. A partner cares for us like parents , take care of us like siblings , listen to our drama like friends and make love to us like lovers.
Jealousy is the purest form of love. He knew it from always and he always saw that in her. Jealousy doesnot means insecurities. Never. Its just.. what's mine is mine.. simple that it is. It does not mean iam afraid you will leave me that is why I want you to be with me.. but simply I just want you ! period!
A five month old baby cries when his mom carries another child. He is not insecure or jealous but just wants his mom to be with him because its his mom. A 2 year old child does the same when his mother says "aaj se ye mera baby hai" carrying another child and he cries to another level. This a pure emotion showing just love and nothing else. And the people who call this immaturity have never fallen in love. There is no such thing as being immature in love. You do all sorts of immature things with the person you truly open up to. And sidharth has seen all these things in the game show they met. He actually fell for her more when he came to know she is jealous because it showed her pure love.
She moved a little in her sleep and made a sleepy husky voice pulling him out of his deep thoughts. His eyes fell on her gorgeous collar bone and he couldn't help himself to resist. He nuzzled his nose on her collar bone and she shuddered in her sleep. He smiled and laid in the crook of her neck. His safe haven.
It was almost midnight and he felt she was shivering. He woke up saw her cluttering her teeth tightly holding the blanket. He pulled her more close and hugged her giving his warmth. Still she was shivering. He added extra quilt on her and finally she calmed a bit. She was finding him in sleep and he hopped beside her taking her in his arms. After some time she again started shivering and she put her hands inside his shirt to feel his warm skin and unknowingly she tried getting in his shirt. He smiled seeing her actions in sleep. He pulled up his shirt and removed her dress carefully and pulled her almost on him. She quickly wrapped herself around him taking his heat. Their naked skins caressing each other warmed up her nerves.
The morning sun was bright. He woke up and saw his little plum all curled up on him. He brushed his lips on her forehead and inhaled her scent which was more like him. He loved waking up to their blended scents. He was busy making some patterns on her bare back , sometimes with his knuckles and sometimes with his fingertips, when his phone buzzed. He checked and it was some important work related emails that he had to check. He got up carefully not disturbing her and freshened up. He settled on the couch in front of the bed watching her and opened his laptop.
She woke up a while later with a beautiful smile plastered on her face. She felt wonderful as if it was the most satisfying slumber. Suddenly she felt only sheets around her. She made a puzzled face and then a wide grin attacked her lips.
"what happened last night bebu" she asked in the most sexy sleepy voice that can exist, brushing her fingers through her hair , making a hell sexy scene for him to watch with another hand holding the sheets near her chest.
Controlling his peaked emotions, He suddenly frowned. She couldn't make out his expressions.
"shehnaaz.. are you for real? You just woke up naked in bed and you are not even bothered to ask why you have no clothes on" he blurted.
"puchha to abhi" she pouted
"to tumhe problem honi chahiye is cheez se k tumse bina puche tumhare kapde kaise nikale kisine.. this is not a good thing"
He didn't feel good that she was not worried at all. All things aside , she should never compromise in self respect.
She made an uhhffo face!
She never understood his logics.. he himself must have removed her clothes and now he is angry why she is not angry on that. She made a face not even understanding what she just thought on her own.. her own thoughts puzzled her.
She clutched the sheets tighter and went towards him and settled on his lap with her knees beside his thighs , straddling.
"mai apne ghar pe hu, tere sath, apne bedroom me, to kyu fikr krungi.. pagal hai kya tu.. lagta hai bina cigarette ke dimag chalna bnd ho gya hai tera"
She held his face with left hand , finger behind his ears and thumb caressing his rough stubble. She whispered "mai khud pe tera pura haq samajhti hu aur tujhpe pura haq rakhti hu.. muje koi problem nhi hai agr mere bina pta chle tune mere kapde nikal diye to.. smjhaa .. I love you to that extent.. honestly I never even knew that this kind of love existed" she made her most innocent confession almost making his eyes moist. He never thought that someone will have this level belief in him someday!
He kissed his cheeks having utmost love in his eyes for her.
"but still tujhe hmesha sb pta hona chahiye aur teri permission hmesha sbse zyada matter krni chahiye or agr tuje bina btaye hua to tuje problem honi chahiye.." he explained his illogical facts as he himself removed her cothes and now was angry that she was not angry!
"mujhe tujse kbhi problem nhi ho skti.. ab nahi hai to kya kru .. zabardsti show kru kya ! kutta.. achha chal bta kyu kia ye"
"vo tuje thand lag rhi thi.. kaamp rhi thi tu aur meri shirt k andr ghus rhi thi isliye"
"han to idiot mai so rhi thi aur tune body heat de di.. isme kya gussa kru mai pagal kahi ka... din par din bewkoof hota jaa rha hai tu"
He gave a frustrated smile as once again he failed to make her understand his point.