The way we are

A Drunken mess

Laura West

I hear Antonio shouting at the girl to leave as I walk up the stairs. I don't know why, the damage is done and he knows it.

I'm silly getting hurt over something that never was but he shows me false hope. He calls me pretty and strokes my hair. It isn't fair.

I miss when it was just us fucking, I felt nothing, He didn't reel me in it was perfect.

If we didn't end up living together I can assume it would all be the same.

I want it back.

I close my bedroom door and lock it, I see lion on the left side of the bed curled up on a pillow I had brought from my house.

I smile and climb into bed next to him, I stay in Antonios T-shirt.

I figure I better get an early night ready for work tomorrow, I have had a stressful couple of days and I deserve to relax now.

I try to ignore the images in my head of Antonio as hard as it is to do that and I lay my head next to lions belly and begin to doze off.

I hear my door hand jiggling and someone knocking.

''Don't tell me you're all butthurt in there laura'' I hear him on the other side.

I ignore him in hopes he will go away thinking I'm asleep.

''This is pathetic Laura you can't sit in there and cry as if I was ever yours''

I close my eyes and do my best to ignore him, I hear footsteps retreating.

I don't need him. I slowly start to fall asleep.

I'm a bad bitch.

I wake up to an excited lion on my belly pawing at me.

I see it is 6:45 and I get up to get into the shower, I have a client to see today. Just a drug charge he will probably get a fine for but he wanted legal advice first. After that, I have to work on my case of the mother trying to get custody of her children.

I turn on the shower and lay out a black towel with my initial on, that I brought from home.

I step in and let the water run down my body for a second, I put myself in a positive mindset, and that me getting upset last night was just the hormones from my pill. I definitely don't like Antonio in that way.

I wash my hair with my coconut-scented shampoo and conditioner and use the floral-scented body wash I like. I get out of the shower and put the hairdryer on, I use it to warm my body up as I brush out my hair and blow-dry it, and I brush my teeth.

I get changed into the outfit I planned last night and straighten my hair. I put on a little concealer and some natural false eyelashes before finishing the look with some plain black heels and spraying some perfume on me.

I grab my handbag and put my phone, phone charger, and car keys in there.

I get downstairs and pack up a lunch for myself, Someone enters the kitchen and I can already assume who it is as I hear them making a coffee.

''Don't go blubbering your mouth about living with me, I don't want the papers getting the wrong idea from that.'' He says in his rough but deep morning voice.

I hum a mhm at him. before placing my lunch in my bag and taking my bottle of water off the side.

I feel his hands on my waist as he trails his fingers up.

''Words laura'' He says lightly in my ear, I smell his minty breath and his morning voice envelopes me in a trance.

''Okay,'' I manage to blurt out.