I Love My Brother's Best Friend

Crash and Burn

I sat there frozen as Riley wrapped her arms around me, I wanted to resist her touch, but she's always been there for me even when I was the one who fucked up. Ashton had left to retrieve us all a few pairs of clothes. Riley whispered something but I didn't hear anything. I was a living body with nothing inside.

"Alex I'm so sorry, I called Mom and Dad there on there way up, they will fix this." Riley said as I sat there basically staring ahead as all my senses came back and all my emotions came flooding in. I was flooded with grief and sadness as I just broke down again for the second time in the past hour.

"Why me, Riley why me. Tell me. How could God hate me so much to make me feel like this, to do this to me. I thought he loved everybody. He doesn't love me Riley. I survived Riley, and they all died. I was pushed past my limit and I've been pushed way past it before and I couldn't come back. She did that, she brought me back, but she's gone too." I said as the tears escaped faster than ever.

"Alex no don't do this. It wasn't your fault. We all know what's wrong. I wish I could fix it, make it all disappear." she said as I held onto her tightly

"That's just it. You don't know what's wrong. This very day we drove a mile drunk and crashed. They fucking died and I sat there alive. I tried to help them. I couldn't live with myself. Mom and Dad, they paid money so this wouldn't go public and hurt their business. They didn't care that I was going insane, no therapy, no check ups. They didn't fucking care, and I hate them for it. She fucking cared. She loved me more than anyone I'd just randomly fucked to get my mind off of my terrible mistake. She was my everything." I said as I dried my eyes and grabbed the phone out of Riley's  up the phone.

"Don't show up....I don't want either of you here. Remember when you didn't care, well I don't either. Show up and you'll hate what I've become all because of you." I said with spitting fire. My mom hung up which meant she got the idea.

I grabbed Riley's hand as we proceeded to Liz's room. I felt my heart clench as I saw her there lifeless. She lay pale with a tint of color above her eyes that where closed. She had almost died. They saved her in five short minutes before...she was gone. She still might not wake up which drives me crazy and I'm hurt and torn and I wish I was laying on the bed, but I couldn't stand to cause her has much pain as I feel right now.

Ashton walked up softly and handed me my clothes. Riley held him as he stroked her back lightly. He looked at me and I nodded my head. He looked astounded. He was the only soul living who knew my terrible mistake. Riley had been told an improvised version a few years ago. She deserved the truth and I knew she would still love me.

I went and sat on a stool beside Liz, she knew the truth along time ago. I love and trust her and she loves me. That's why she has to wake up wether that means I die and not her. I just wish we had known. Her parents said it's not even in her family. I don't know how to explain where it came from. She doesn't even know. She hasn't been awake.

Riley's POV
As Ashton held me everything Alex said came rushing back. He drove drunk. That explains why he barely drinks. For about six months he totally stopped. I wish I could take his pain he has enough for Christ sake his wife is dying right before his eyes.

We all want her back, I want that bubbly girl we all loved. She was the happiest, most optimistic person I knew. She helped Alex, my parents abandon him like the little shits they are. That explains it all why I spent about 15 years of my life with my brother as a father.

I know my parents had heartache, but not enough to just leave and get trapped in all their work. There worthless, but I still love them. They are my parents and Alex needs to forgive them to let this secret go. I pushed Ashton off as I walked into Liz's room.

"Alex get your ass on that phone and call them back." I said as tears welled in my eyes. "Why Riley, I just told you what they did to me. Don't you understand they don't love us!" he said as he held Liz's hand.

"They do Alex, they just don't know how to show it. I love them even though they didn't treat us like normal kids. They left us alone, but Alex that made you and I stronger." I said as a tear fell out.

"I'm not calling them. End of story I know that, but they should have learned how to show it before they did this to me. They made me hate me. They made me just use people. They made me not trust people." he said as I sighed.

"Alex you did that by not forgiving them. You need to fucking call them. I'm not asking I'm telling. Set yourself free so when Liz wakes up you'll be there for her." I said as I stormed off into a secluded area. Ashton didn't follow me.

Alex's POV
You're not calling them. Don't Alex you'll regret it they will hurt you. Riley's words replayed in my mind. "Set yourself free." she said that clenched my heart. That made me actually take a second to think maybe I should forgive them.

No Alex they don't deserve you. You will not call them on any circumstances. I screamed out. Ashton came rushing in.

"I can't fucking do it Ashton. I can't forgive them. They will hurt me again. They don't love me. My minds treating me like shit. I can't fucking take it. I need her she would calm me down and help me through it." I cried out as Ashton stood there watching me cry on my wife's lap.

I grabbed her face in my palms. "You listen to me. I fucking need you, baby. You can't leave me. You are all I have. You make me happy so don't you even fucking think twice about leaving me. Wake up baby I need you." I cried as I watched her eyes flicker. My heart stopped beating. She tried lifting another eyelid. She couldn't and I watched as she started resting again. A tear fell down my cheek.

"I love you." I said as I grabbed my keys and jacket. I stormed through the double doors.
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