Only Human [Zak Bagans Fanfic].

Sadness of Lust Ache

I lay on my side and Zak lay with me. My back to his front. The candles were still the only light source in the room and I seemed to be a bubble. In a good place. My inner goddess was just as relaxed and high on what had happened as I was.

However, this didn't mean anything, did it? I had asked Zak if he'd be my first and he agreed but was that all it was? My first being an easy excuse to get laid? The thought of it being that suddenly made me a little queasy but I held back with the strength the urge to show it.

"I'll be back in a minute" He said softly.

"Hmmm..." I sighed as contently as I could. I felt a little movement and a kiss on my shoulders before I heard the padding from his bare feet hitting the wooden floor.

I must have let myself fall in to a slight daze with the warmth of the room and the glow of the candles. When I stirred, Zak was carrying me bridal style out of the bedroom. I didn't take my eyes of him as he carried me. His muscles were clearly working to support me.

"Can you stand?" he asked when he stopped.

"Yes" I answered with a nod.

It was when he set me on my feet and I looked around I noticed that we were in his bathroom. It was huge. Almost the same size as my room in my apartment. This is more bathroom than a man needs. There was candles lit and music playing. I couldn't recall whom it was but it was very familiar. The bath was filled and had bubbles like clouds over the top. The bath was big enough to fit about three people with ease.

I looked down when I felt his hands sit neatly on my hips, I felt his front come to my back slowly and then he touched when we were touching. His hands reached round, roaming my stomach... my ribs...my breasts. My eyes closed as I savoured the feeling of his hands. They were soft, as if they'd defined the meaning of moisturisation. The music ringing in my ears just made this thing a pang of lust ache from my body. Like he knew he would do this to me.

A hand took mine and I looked down slowly, he was now at my side and I was in such a haze of lust for him, I hadn't notice him move. He moved forward, pulling me towards the bath and I was surprised that I could move but I could so I followed him. He held me steady as I stepped. The water was aching hot and it stung at first touch. The sharp pain I got when I sat in the water was a weird feeling and I winced a little.

"Sore?" He asked softly.

"Just...not fully used to the feeling" I admitted, looking up at him.

He was now joining me. Oh my! I had to bit my lip to hide my smile. I never knew that sleeping with once would make my heart leap with happiness at the thought of bathing with him. He gently put his hands on my shoulders and pulled me back against his chest. I laid my head on the part of his chest just below his collarbone. His legs were on the outer side of me. I just had to smile to myself. If I had imagined myself like this with a man, with any man never mind this man, I would have laughed. Big style.

"Thank you" He mumbled.

"What for?" I answered absently. To happy with my own place in time.

"Letting me be your first. It's a big deal... Something so old fashioned about it these days for a girl you're age to be a virgin... or was a virgin" He explained, "It's...just the whole idea of me taking you're virginity never left my mind the entire time we were apart after we came back."

I didn't turn to look at him, I just looked straight ahead of me. I had no idea it meant this much to him. Was it just my virginity he was so taken on by taking or was it any girl's that had offered him theirs? Surely, every teenager must dream of that so maybe it was me? Oh, I was dreaming.

"Thank you for being so...understanding and gentle" I finally answered in my own thanks.

"I spoke to your boss again, You have the time of to come with us on our next investigation" He changed the subject.

"The next investigation?" I frowned. This time I sat up and turned a little to look at him. "I'm still coming on an investigation with you?"

"Why not?"

"Things might get complicated..."

"No, they won't...Not if we don't make them get complicated" He assured me.

Daisy had assured me that relations with someone you work with causes complications and even ruins the relationship. Fair enough, Zak and I didn't work together and we had no sort of relationship like that but there was still a friendship to lose if things got complicated and I wasn't in any way experienced enough to handle that. Period.