Love War

Confused

Shuhua Pov

I couldn't believe what just happened Soojin actually likes someone else and it was Somi and not me. Why Somi I was always there for her through everything and I never judged her because I love her.

Not only did I love her but I gave my everything to her yet she still saw me as a friend a stupid friend and I just which she felt the same way I do about her but she doesn't she doesn't feel the same way.

When I saw that she was on a date with stupid Somi my heart shattered into a million pieces I was going to see Sana to make me feel better and because she is my friend but Soojin kept popping up in my head because I only love her only her and no one else.

I first fell for unnie when I came to Korea to train as an idol, nobody could speak Chinese at the time except for Yuqi but I didn't know her yet nor Minnie, and so I was alone in a new country by myself.

I would cry myself to sleep most nights because I missed my friends and family and also I just felt so alone I had no friends, nobody understood what I was saying and nobody dared to come up to me.

I thought all hope was gone and I even thought about going back to Taiwan many times and I was going to but than she came.

The love of my life Seo Soojin. She had seen me come into the practice room alone during lunch break as that was where I ate my lunch most days so I wouldn't have to be teased by the other trainees.

She had seen me around and thought of introducing herself to me "Hey why are you in here all alone?" I remember her saying in such a sweet tone that I love.

I couldn't reply in Korean at all so with the little knowledge I had of English I said "Me can't spewk Koreean" I said hoping she understood me.

After a minute of no reply I was positive that she thought I was weird so waited for her mean comments. But it never came.

Instead she took out her phone and handed it to me it was a translator when I looked up at her she just smiled at me and nodded at the translator.

Since that day I knew I loved her and not only that I wanted to marry her and even have kids together with her. I didn't even date because I wanted to stay loyal to my Jinjin and not only that I'm saving myself for her so she can take my first on everything my first kiss, first girlfriend, first love and even my first time.

I am the jealous type but tonight just made me another level of jealous I don't regret what I did to Somi she deserves it and she knew I like Soojin yet she goes on and takes Soojin on a date with her.

I was so angry at her I wanted to rip her head off and I was about to until Sana stopped me. Sana is a good friend to me and she never tries to hurt me I really appreciate her but I also know she has a thing for Somi.

I can see it in her eyes, the way she looked at her and how she was so gentle to her but I know she is hurt too because of Somi and Soojin we both went through so much pain, today by the people we love we don't deserve this it's not fair but nevertheless I still love Soojin and I won't let the bitch Somi take her from me no matter what.

I will get with Soojin one way or another and Somi just needs to back off if it's a war she wants than it's a war she will get because I'm Yah Shuhua and I don't back down and I will get what's mine I'm called boss baby for a reason.

It's late and I already know Soojin is not coming back tonight after what happened Sana didn't leave and chose to stay with me which I was very grateful for because I don't want to be alone tonight.

We decided to go to my room and play some movies on my phone it was really late and I was finishing the movie we were watching, when I feel arms around my waist and someone moving closer to me it was Sana.

"let's just cuddle" she said to me with that cute smile she has,we deserve it to have someone to cuddle with since we can't cuddle with the person we really want.

Suddenly Sana looked into my eyes and she pecked my lips it was actually really nice and so we dozed off to sleep she was so cute like a little squirrel and I enjoyed her company and I didn't mind her kiss I could feel her love as a friend and care ness she has for me and I loved it.

She may not be Soojin but she makes me feel special and I like that about her, I just hope she is not hurting as much right now because I hate to see the ones I care for hurt it makes me sad she is a incredible person not a slut like Soojin called her.

I still can't believe she said those mean things to her she must've felt so embarrassed and hurt while hearing that and Sana did nothing to her and I already know Soojin talks pretty bad about Sana to Somi and that's terrible because Sana likes her.

Soojin just needs to calm down but also she needs to apologize to me and Sana I don't think she knows how bad she hurt us, words can ruin a person and if I wasn't in love with her and she was just some stranger I would probably be cussing her out and defending my friend.

But because I love her I am trying to believe what she said was not true and it was just a action in the moment because Soojin never acts like this she is a kind, sweet, passionate, interesting, and a intelligent person who puts other people before her maybe she said all that because she was upset but still words hurt and Sana may not be as understanding as me.

I don't like the thought of Soojin being with Somi right now in fact I hate it and I miss being with her but at the same time I'm happy she isn't here because I'm still hurt and not ready to see her yet and besides it makes me happy knowing that Sana is by me and is safe because she is also hurt.

It's late so I will rest but the next time I see Soojin we will have to talk and she needs to know that I love her and she is only mine also whenever I see Somi again I'm going to beat the shit out of her and show who is the boss and what is mine is MINE she makes my blood boil but for now I will just enjoy this moment with Sana we both know we need this right now.