Stop The World

Chapter 33

It all happened so fast but it seemed like it was all in slow motion at the same time. I saw nurses and doctors rush down the hall to his room as I heard machines going crazy. I stood and watched as they all entered his room sheilding him from me. I clutched  the ring box up against my heart. That was my last thing of Niall's. My last thing I'd ever get from him. Not another kiss. Not another hug. Nothing but this. A symbol of our love. Our enternal for each other. I slipped it on as I heard the doctor talking terms I didn't even understand. I so desperatly wanted Niall to come back to me. I wanted him to walk riht out of that room and kiss me one last time. That was all I needed. I need him wrapped up in my arm's. I hoped for a better outcome but it didn't happen. I knew it was the end. No one even had to tell me even though the doctor did anyway. My heart shattered into a million little pieces. I had lost the love of my entire life. I fell onto the floor and I felt Maggie wrapped her arms around me. I was broken. Completely broken. My whole world turned black.
     

  ''Where is she!?'' I heard familiar voice say. 
I knew that voice. That was my Liam. Liam had made it just right when I needed him most. I got up and ran down the hallway meeting Liam. I ran right straight into his arms sobbing. He held me so tight I never wanted him to let go of me. I needed Liam to keep my strong. He was the only thing I had left to keep me sane.  
     

  ''What happened? Is he okay?'' he asked. 
I looked up into his eyes making out his worried face though my tears. I clutched onto his arms and held held me up straight so I wouldn't fall back down to the floor. 
   ''Liam....'' I couldn't say it. I couldn't say those words.
       

''He's gone?'' 
His voice cracked and I could tell he was almost in tears. 
     

  ''Yes.'' 
Liam clutched onto me and I buried my face into his chest. This was the worst day of my entire life. 

Here I was. Here I was at my boyfriends funeral. Never did I think I would end up here. I felt all eyes on me as it was my turn to speak. I stood up in front of everyone. I didn't know what I should really say. I had prepared a speech but I felt like it wasn't good enough. All eyes were on me. I took in a breath and looked down at Niall's casket. 
       

''I had wrote down what I thought I wanted to say but it's not what I really want to say or what I should say. I guess there's no way of advioding this no matter how hard I try. I loved Niall and he loved me. Um..he was the first person I have ever loved and will continue to love for the rest of my life. Everyday he made me feel so loved and so special. I felt so lucky to know someone so incredible as Niall Horan. I remember the first day I met him. He was sitting alone at the top of the bleachers playing on his phone. We ended be detention buddies at first but I always felt something between us. I felt a connection with him and as I got to know him I fell in so deeply in love. It wasn't always easy with us but I always knew that no matter what he loved me an that was I needed, his love. He showed me what real true love is like. It's amazing, it's special, and the best gift you can receive. He was taken away from me so unfairly and too but maybe this was how it was meant to be. You can't fight fate no matter how hard you try. I like to think he fought for me. He fought to be with me again but that's fate. You don't get to chose it because it chooses you. You can't run or hide from it because no matter what it will always find you no matter where you run too. Niall was the greatest person I ever knew. He loved me probably more than anyone ever could. He was and will always be the love of my life. For those of you that don't know Niall bought me this ring a few days before he passed and he wanted to marry me. He never got to ask me but if he did I'd say yes. I will wear this ring for the rest of my life to remind me of the perfect man I once knew. It wasn't supposed to be like this but it is and I can't do anything about it. But what I can do is make sure that I keep his love for me in my heart and love him until the day I that I die. And Niall...not possible.'' 

I reached down and kissed his casket. I didn't want to say goodbye but I had too and I did.