Stop The World

Chapter 22

 ¨Why are you doing this?¨ Liam asked as he laid on my bed.
       

¨Doing what?¨ I asked. 
       

¨Being with Harry again. I know for a fact you don't like him. You're not even over Niall.¨ 

I spun around in my chair. Why was Liam bringing up Niall? He knew not to even speak of his name around me. Just hearing his name made my heart break all over again. It had been a month now since Niall's blowup at me but I still played it over in my mind everyday. I hadn't seen him since the day in the hallway. I wondered where he was. What he was doing. Who he was with (although I already knew.) Even though I was with Harry again I didn't even want to be. I only did it because I knew everyone expected us to get back together. Everyone knew that me and Harry would always get back together. Everyone wanted s to be together so I gave them what they wanted. I wondered if after high school it would still be like this. I wondered if I'd still be trapped in an unhappy relationship because the person I wanted would never want me. He didn't know that of course. I could act like I liked him but I knew where my heart really was. I was still in love with Niall. Each day that I didn't see his face was torture. I wanted to see him. I needed to see him. Either way seeing him or not seeing was torture but I'd rather see his face then to have to wonder what he was doing all the time. 
     

  ¨We don't talk about him. Okay? We don't even act like he even exsists. Got it?¨ 
       

¨Face it Nori, you're still in love with Niall. You could care less about Harry at this point.¨ 
     

  ¨Listen, I never want to hear that name again. Do you understand that? He's done. He's in the past.¨ 
       

¨No he's not.¨ 
     

  ¨Stop talking about it Liam! I never want to hear his name again and I mean that.¨ 
       

¨Fine but you know I'm right. Anyway..is Harry taking you to winter formal?''
     

  ¨Yeah but he has to ask me first. Do you know how he's going to ask me?¨ 
   

    ¨Yeah he told me.¨ 
   

    ¨How?¨ 
   

    ¨He's going to do it in front of the whole school on Friday.¨ 
       

¨During the assembly?¨ 
       

¨That's the plan.¨ 
   

    ¨Perfect.¨ I smiled.

And it was perfect. This was going to let the whole school know that me and Ashton were the couple we said we were. This was going to tell people that I was back on top taking my spot as top dog. Harry's plan was perfect. It was like he knew exactly what I wanted. Which he should at this point as long as we've known each other. I had heard a few times people talking about my ex friendship or whatever it was with Niall. I did not need people asking questions about that. People were starting to second guess me but on Friday everyone would know that nothing was stopping me. Sure I could really care less about Harry but no one knew that or even had too. I picked up my phone for my hourly check to see if Niall had texted or called. Of course he didn't. Why should I love a guy who doesn't even feel the same way about me? Why should I keep waiting around for Niall when he has a girlfriend and doesn't care about me?  I shouldn't feel the way I do but I do and I can't stop feeling it. I can't stop this heart break. I can't stop being in love with him. Trust me, if I could I would. I relive my heartbreak everyday just so I can feel something. He's the only thing that can make me feel at this point. I'd rather feel my heartache over Niall than nothign at all. 
     

  ¨You know I heard that Harry wants to propose to you.¨ Liam said interrupting my thoughts.
     

  ¨What!?¨ I yelled as my heart starting beating faster than it ever had. 
     

  ¨Yeah he told me.¨ 
       

¨You're lying.¨ 
     

  ¨I wish I was. What would you even say?¨ 
What would I say? Oh my god that's what he is going to do Friday. No. No. No. No. That couldn't happen. That wouldn't happen. But it's going to happen. What was I going to do? I had to put a stop to this somehow. Harry could not ask me to marry him. No. Never. I was still in my prime. And besides I was still seventeen years old. I won't even be eighteen until February, I'm way too young. Oh my god what was I going to do? This couldn't happen. I had to find some way to stop this. I needed to come up with a plan to stop this. 
     

  ¨Yeah I think he might do it Friday too.¨ Liam added. 
No. No. No. No. That would not happen if I had anything to do with it. Absolutely not. Never. This could never happen. Never in a million years should this ever happen. 
     

  ¨Oh my god. I can't believe this.¨ 
       

¨I know and I heard that I've just made this all up.¨ 
       

¨I literally hate you so much!¨ I said slapping his arm. 
       

¨No you don't.¨ 
       

¨Yes I do.¨ 
     

  ¨Why don't you just go talk to Niall and save yourself some more heartbreak?''
   

    ¨That's never going to happen Li.¨