Stop The World

Chapter 27

   ''Niall you don't have to do this.'' I said gripping his hand. 
     

  ''I need to.''
It had been a crazy night already. Niall had confessed his feelings for me and told me all about his past. I now understood why I always thought he was unavailable. It was because he was broken and it was understandable. Anyone would be broken if the person they loved died right in front of them. I wondered if Niall could truly move on from Abby. I wondered if he could fully give me his heart. It had finally stopped raining and he had taken me to Abby's grave. I thought it was a little weird for me to be here but Niall wanted me to come. I hoped that this was closer for him or the start of it. 
     

  ''If you're not ready to move on from her Niall then don't.''
     

  ''I am Nori. I'm ready to let go and move on with you.'' 
But I wasn't so sure he meant it. He still was grieving and I didn't want to get in the way of that. Somehow I felt that he just wasn't ready to let go. I could be wrong, but I felt like he was still in love with her. After all that was his first love. I didn't want to feel like this. I wanted to be bursting with happiness right now. I shouldn't already be doubting everything. Maybe this was a mistake. I shouldn't have come here with him tonight. I let go of his hand and backed away from him. 
       

''Where are you going?'' he asked. 
     

  ''I should leave. I..shouldn't have come here. I'm sorry.''
     

  ''Nori wait.'' 
       

''I'll see you later Niall. I'm sorry.'' 
I turned around, walked away and didn't look back. Maybe it would never work out with Niall. Only one person could have his heart and that wasn't me. But maybe I was just being selfish. This had been the longest night of my life. I thought that maybe it would turn out better than this. I thought I would actually have a chance with Niall. Sure he might of said he loved me but I couldn't really believe that he meant it. I did. I meant it with everything I had. I loved Niall more than I could even love myself and that was saying a lot. I felt rain drops hit my skin. Great just what I needed right now. I texted Liam to come pick me up. I could have waited on him but I just kept walking. I felt like if I walked away from all of this then I would feel better. Maybe I was just lying to myself. Maybe I was just trying to sabotage everything. See the thing is, I always do stuff like that. I sabotage everything that comes into my life that makes me happy. Why? Well..I just don't want to get hurt. I mean who does want to get hurt? Nobody. And I've already been hurt enough by Niall. By now it was raining and I was soaking wet yet again. I had hoped that Niall would have tried and followed me but he didn't. I saw headlights and knew it was Liam. I stopped when I saw that the car had stopped. 
     

  ''What happened?'' Liam asked running up to me. 
     

  ''I don't want to talk about it.'' I said getting in. 
The whole way home I just looked out of the window and stayed silent. I couldn't even tell if I was crying or if it was the rain droplets falling onto my face. It was probably both. I was starting now to regret leaving Niall like that. This was probably it for us. There was never going to be Niall and Nori probably ever. I couldn't blame him if he was upset at me. I understood. But it was too late to go back now. The damage was already done. Of course I had ruin something good. It never fails. 
       

''Whatever happened tonight Nori-'' 
I cut Liam off, ''I told you I don't want to talk about it Li.'' 
       

''Just hear me out. I know how you are. You're stubborn, arrogant, self centered, and most of the time rude.'' 
     

  ''Great, thanks Liam.'' 
       

''I'm not finished. But you're also kind, loving, beautiful, and still that little girl that holds onto her past too. I bet you felt like it wasn't going to work out so you ran away. You can't do that Nori. Not when someone you love is trying to prove it to you. So you have a choice. Either you can go in that house and dwell on what happened tonight or go back to Niall's.'' 
     

  ''Goodnight Liam.'' 
I got out of the car and walked inside. Even though I knew Liam was right like always I just didn't want to deal with any of this anymore. This night went from bad to great to worse again.
       

''How was the dance tonight?'' my dad asked. 
       

''Terrible. Goodnight.''
I walked up to room and got changed out of Nialls clothes. I hung them up to dry and couldn't help but to wonder how I'd give these back this time. I laid down on my bed and started to cry. Why couldn't I just stop running away? How many more times did I have to do this to myself? I should have made Liam take me back to Niall. I buried my face into my pillow. Then I felt a hand touch my cheek. Through my tears I saw Niall's face appear. I didn't know why he was here or how even knew. But Niall always knew. Because he loved me. I touched his hand and intertwined our fingers together.
     

  ''I was wrong before,'' I said, ''This is love. You're mine. My home isn't somewhere. My home is you. You're my home.'' 
Niall picked me up and as he sat down on my bed he placed me on his lap. He softly kissed my lips and traced his hand over my cheek then to my lips. 
     

  ''Remember the conversation we had at my lake?'' 
       

''Yeah what about it?'' 
     

  ''You're my true love Nori. You. Abby was my first love but you're the only love of my life. And you can try to walk away from me all you want but I will fight for you. For us. Believe me when I say this Nori. I do love you. I'm so in love with you it's crazy. I love you.'' 
     

  ''Niall..there's just so much that you don't know.'' 
       

''Tell me later but tonight we're going to sit here and I'm going to tell you how much I love you.''