Secrets | Thomas Sangster Fanfic

CHAPTER THIRTY ONE

To all of those who are frustrated with the fact that I 'brought' callum back to life in one chapter and then the next made him engaged to Tate.

It was the plan all along. I actually had come up with a plot about 9 chapters in... But not until then.

I am the kind of person who can't handle to much fluffing around in books. so if this is too much twists and shit for you, well.

I recommend you reading another fan fiction

Also less and less people are reading this so that is why my updates are less frequent... i kid, i just hvae no idea how to link the next few chapters to something... ;)

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SUPRISE SUPRISE ITS NOT EDITED :/
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"You got everything?" I call out to Thomas as I slam down the boot of his car.

I don't know how he convinced me
To go to Louisiana. All he said was, you are going to love me so much for it. trust. there it goes again. I'm trusting people like nothing has ever come wrong because of it.

But just the idea of going on a trip with Thomas to somewhere I had never been excited me. I was sick of this town and I think he knew that too.

He told me that he was accepted for a movie role. he didn't tell me what the movie was. whether it was big or not all he said was "trust me you will love it" either way I can tell how excited he is about it and so am I. I haven't seen him act since auditions for the musical...

'Oh no, we gonna rock down to Electric Avenue
And then we'll take it higher
Oh, we gonna rock down to Electric Avenue....'

Electric avenue plays from the stereo of the car the sounds rolling out from each of the windows. I don't know why this song puts me in such a good mood but it just does. probably because it's played in one of my all time favourite movies - pineapple express - Seth Rogan is seriously one of the best actors out.

I continue to hum the tune of the catchy song and I squish as much of the gear into the boot as possible. slamming the boot closed quickly in hope that it won't rebound and hit me in the face.

"Hey Erica can we talk?" I turn around to see the faces of my two old freinds.

"Um, we are leaving now. it's not the best time" I say biting my lip and walking around to the passenger side of the car.

"Erica please" sadie says putting her hand on my shoulder to stop me walking away from them.

I turn around to look at them. Guilt is smeared across there face. They don't drop their eyes from me. I can't say that I did the same in their case as mine dropped straight to my sneakers within seconds.

"Okay" I mumble, unsure if they would even hear me. but they did.

"We want to apologise" kora says as sympathetic as possible.

"Okay" I say quietly, turning back around to continue getting ready.

"Erica just let us explain" kora protests. Sadie stays quiet. she hasn't said much. I know she finds situations like these awkward so I'm not surprised she hasn't stepped. of course we have been friends since we were little, much longer then Kora and my self had been. but I sort of always felt that we would go in our own directions. after my heart problems and all, she didn't stop cheerleading. she didn't have a reason to. which meant she made plenty of friends through that. friendships stronger than her and I had. or so it looked I never really knew cause she didn't talk about them with me. because they used to be my friends too.

"Hey guys what's up" Thomas says in the usual chirpy manner as he walks down the drive and puts his gear in the back of the car. I wince as he goes to open the back of the car as it goes flying up quickly making him stumble back.

"Shit sorry Thomas" I say running over to him to see if he's okay. "I thought your gear was already in there I'm so sorry"

"It's fine, just gave me a fright that's all" he says standing up with a small chuckle.

"We came to see Erica" Sadie finally opens her mouth.

"Well don't mind me I have to go and get one last thing. I would say take as long as you want but we need to be on the road soon" he says walking back up to the house.

"Okay" I say waiting for one of them to start.

"It was hard for us too. with everything that was going on. it wasn't just you going through the rough patch we were affected just as much as you" Sadie says slowly raising her voice as she went on. "we know we should have been there for you, and we are sorry. but what's done is done and us coming back to try and fix this friendship is the most mature thing we could have done"

'Affected just as much as you' plays over and over in my head. last time I checked they bloody well weren't.

You didn't have to stop everything you loved because your heart was basically broken. you didn't have to go through the past few months convinced your brother was dead from a car crash that you thought was for fault. you didn't have to live thinking that your dead brothers heart was in your chest. Your parents didn't abandon you when you needed them most. your "dead" brother didn't come back the dead to tell you that he is gay and faked his death and now is going to run away with one of your good friends. you didn't have to go through all of that with no one to support you. you have no clue what I went through. so don't make any assumptions that you were hurt as much as me.

That is what I wanted to say. I wanted to scream that in their faces let them know how broken I was inside. how much I had needed them this last year. but I didn't.

"Okay" the same word as before. the only word I was going to say to them.

"You ready babe?" Thomas says slipping into the drivers seat.

I give a small nod towards him. then turn back to Sadie and Kora.

"Goodbye" I wasn't going to forgive them. not yet anyway. their apology made me sick to the stomach made me feel like it was all my fault and that they were affected by all of this because of me.

"Maybe when you get back to town we can have a movie night like the old times?" Kora says with a small smile and a even smaller shrug.

I look down to the ground at my shoes once more, then back up at them.

"Maybe"