Secrets | Thomas Sangster Fanfic

CHAPTER SIXX

It was starting to get dark. I could feel my phone vibrating in my pocket. I'm assuming it was Callum. he probably though I am being raped I never go out, let alone on a school night.

"I found this hill yesterday. I wanted to watch the sun set here tonight by myself. But then I wanted to do it with someone. So would you, please?" He says like an excited child. I laugh at his adorable characteristics. "Fine" I sit down on the hill beside him. Slowly lying down. The sky is starting to get a pick and orange tinge more and more as the sun disappears over the horizon.

He moves closer too me. "So Erica, what's your Story ? " He says rolling in his side.i think for a second. What if he will judge me for being the complete reject that I am.

"My story? Well I am 17 years old. female"
He laughs "well you are one of the most beautiful females I have ever met" he mumbles. I pretend like I didn't hear it cause there is a 99% chance that was a pity compliment. "uh what else, I have a cat named bery. I am into science and maths  uhhh yea that's pretty much me" I say rolling on my side to face him. Our faces around 15 centre metres away from each other.

"No it's not, but I understand it must be difficult to talk about your self on the spot like that, do you do you have any hobbies?" he asks looking into my eyes lowering his voice to a pitch just above whisper. My breath hitches, I start panicking inside. No he can't know. He can't. I sigh "No" he sighs "Oh well that's okay" he says grabbing a piece of hair that has fallen on my face, gently tucking it behind my eye. I smile. I can't stop smiling. I am in total disbelief that a boy as amazing and as sweet as him could be talking to me!

He starts to sit up I follow. "isn't it pretty?" he says staring off into the sunset. My gaze follows. "yeah" I agree. It was truly beautiful. "it's sad" He starts "how in the future. The world will be too fixated on technology and texting people to notice the things like this. They think technology like cell phones and computers are going to help us. They are. But in the future they will be the things that are holding us back. and when they do realise. it will be too late" he says. "I agree. that is so true. I feel sorry for the next generation after us-" I look over to him. he's already looking at me. He starts leaning his head closer to mine. Hi eyes closing...my phone starts angrily vibrating in my pocket again. urgh Callum! I answer it unwillingly

 "where are are you Erica?!" my brother asks over the phone sounding worried as hell

"I'm out with Thomas."

"You need to get home. I don't want to have to come out and find you dead on the side walk" he says

"Fine. will be home in five" I say ending the call.

"I'm so sorry Thomas, my parents are out of town and yeah"

He laughs "it's okay, hey in all irony to the conversation we just had. Can I have your number" "yeah sure" I laugh back. He hands out his phone and I put my number in it. "thanks" he says tucking it back in his pocket. "thanks. I had fun" I say. We both stand up. "guess I will see you tomorrow" "I guess you will" and at that moment all of courage built up. I leant over and kissed him on the check. "bye Thomas" I say running off so I don't see his expression. Or he doesn't see mine.
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I run the entire way home. I was so happy I could do a Forest Gump and run the entirety of the country. once I'm home I collapse on the couch. Breathing heavily. My heart hurting.
"Erica what's for dinner- Oh my god you ran home! Shit do I need to call an ambulance. what do I need to do. Mom always deals with this." he says panic rising in his voice.
I grasp enough energy to say " I'm. Fine. Just. Need. Some. Time. To. Rest. " my heart feeling like it was going to rip in half with the amount of work it was doing and that i was going to black out at any second.

When I was 14 I was diagnosed with Rheumatic heart disease. Basically it means that I had permanent damage to my heart valves after I got rheumatic fever. I wasn't always the science nerd that I am today. sadie and I used to do cheerleading and volley ball and all of those kinds of sports I used to captain the rep team but when I got sick it all went down hill from there. Since my heart valve is now damaged it takes twice as much energy to pump the blood around my body. I could no longer do the things I used to do. I was off school for over 6 months.When I came back I told them all I was on an exchange in Hong Kong but I was really just recovering. I don't want them to know they will just pity me and look at me differently. only my family, Sadie and Kora know and i want to keep it that way. I'm on the list for a heart valve transplant but since I'm not in critical state anymore I'm way way down. So I decided since i will have to stop everything i once loved i would have to start something new to distract me. science. At first everyone at school was confused at the fact that i had compltelty dropped all my sporting life. But I just say i was shown a different side of school in Hong Kong. 

"what did you do?" he asks folding his arms looking over me. I sit down on the couch. "get my pills" I gasp. He runs over to the cupboard bringing me over the container filled with all my medication. i pull out the first pack assuming that would fix it. It did. 

I lie there for a few more minutes recovering. "what did you do?"  I ran, I completely forgot... I miss it so much cal" he walks over to me and sighs "i know. it will get better. you will eventually move up the list."

I smile and look away because we both know this isnt true.