distance between us

July 23rd 2021

breakup

"... i feel like i'm doing a shit job at keeping this relationship and i'm just not ready to get into one after past relationships and Y/N i'm sorry because i know this is gonna upset you but i have no other way of saying this without it upsetting you. and Y/N thank you i really loved you and you were one of the most caring girlfriends but it's better if we stay friends because i love you Y/N i really do and i wanna stay close with you " sent at 10:29pm.

Y/N POV
wow
so that's it. he breaks up with me
i mean just this morning i was talking with sister about how i wanted to break up with him but i was just scared. he just broke up with me. yeah i hated him half of the time but i did really like him. parts of me thought he was the one for me. parts of me wanted to even believe that. What's worse was that he's with his friend when he breaks up with me. how much you wanna bet his friend influenced him. i'll bet it because it's his best friend. of course he was
"just send it bro"
"cmon"
what do you mean you're not ready for a relationship when not even a week ago you told me
"if you don't marry me in the future istg"
fine i "understand"

"oh okay ahaha just give me time right now"
"Y/N are u mad"
"am i mad ?"
"Y/N there was no way for me to do this without you getting upset"
"JER WHAT ? you're kidding ? my boyfriend EX just broke up with me and i cant get upset okay what YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND WHERE IM COMING FROM"
"okay gn"
"i'm not going to sleep but goodnight"
"i'm not sleeping either maybe till later but id rather be the last person you wanna text"
"hmm"
"ly night Y/N"

At the end of the day.
At the end of the night.
At the end of this conversation.
He has the guts to say love you.?!?!
WHO DOES HE THINK HE IS SAYING LOVE U AFTER BREAKING UP WITH ME.
This guy has the guts too say it.

You walk into your sisters room.
"jer broke up with me" Y/N speaks out while crying
"WHAT ?!? you're joking" Y/N sister looks into you.
"no i'm not" Y/N
"he really broke up with me and it annoys me more that i was talking about breaking up with him this morning" Y/N
"how did he break up with you" Y/N sister said while leading you too sit down.
"through text and what's worse was that he was with his best friend" Y/N started to wipe the tears off of her face.
Your two sisters Liz and Nic facing eachother while grieving what you're going through.
"hey ima just go upstairs and call a friend"
Y/N says and with that you're slowly walking up while you over hear your sisters.
"tell me you're joking"
"no yeah he did break up with her"
"oh my god"
"i feel like he's was just leading her on"
"yeah because Y/N really liked him"
You ran upstairs locked the door and called your friend telling her about what just happened. you run back to your sisters room and speak up.
"hey guys i'm fine i'm just gonna go to sleep" Y/N says while sniffling
"you wanna have a sleepover" nic ask raising her brows concerned for Y/N.
"yeah we can stay with you if you want" liz adds on hugging you.
"no guys it's okay i'm okay promise" Y/N started to sniffle again.
"Are you sure ?" both of your sisters ask.
"yes i'm positive" Y/N snickers.

Y/N POV
i hate him
what am i not good enough ?
will he care if i kill myself ?
will he care ?
or does he not care anymore
i bet he didn't even like me or love me he just dated me for the sake of a relationship and to be able to say "i'm dating". Of course he's jer. what was i even thinking. Thinking he was the one for me . pfft fact i ever thought that.
Amount of red flags i saw in him.
Mistaking me as the girl i hate
"all this time i thought u were texting me but it was ren" as he laughs ?
He's BEST FRIENDS with girls i hate and i've had bad past times with them.
Not putting effort into our relationship.
Being so toxic.
Making me cry whenever i thought of him or our relationship.
Mentioning the same girls over and over.
First time we were even gonna hang out he asked to bring a girl ?
Showing me videos he has made of this girl. SAME GIRL he wanted to bring with us to hang.
Telling me how he hates this girl but is besties with her what's her name again ...Clare.
Found out that Clare and him were gonna stay in a cabin together while i was dating him.
so many more red flags less effort to say right now from how much i wanna cry and not get out of bed right now.
all i wanna do is just cry

"morning"

Y/N POV
why is he still texting me.
he's still texting me. i don't wanna be friends with him anymore.

"gm"
"wanna talk about anything from last night"

DO I WANNA TALK ABOUT ANYTHING LAST NIGHT NO WHAT WOULD I TALK ABOUT
"oh jer why'd you break up with me"
"oh jer don't leave me"
He really is some piece of shit.
He's such a dick always has been and always will be .

"no i don't wbu"
"same tbh not really"
"hm"

WHAT THE FUCK
YOU CANT JUST ASK IF YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT SOMETHING YOU DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO TALK ABOUT IN THE FIRST PLACE.
That's it i'm not texting him for the whole day
fucking dick.
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heyy so another fun fact 😆
All the red flags i've said are true yupp
each and every single one of them
There's way more but i'd rather not decide to say. conversations in this happened in real life so everything i'm typing actually happened:/
also wanna add on that i hope making a story about our relationship doesn't make me seem obsessive i just wanted to write a story about this :)
and i just wanna clarify that if you're in a toxic relationship or see ANY red flags at all in it please leave it because it's going to get worse.
i saw the red flags from the start of the relationship but i was too scared to say anything. which is not good . please do not be scared in any relationship to speak up.
i love you all<33 and you deserve to be treated so much better.
enjoy your day and do something nice :)