Love Sick/Lachambers

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Christopher Chambers

With Gordie's hand in mine, it felt so right. Running around town hand-in-hand..It's like it's just me and Gordie in the world. And when we lay in the grass at out spot. When I close my eyes all I can think about is our future toge—

Oh god.

Do I..Have a crush on..Gordie? I mean it would make sense why I truly didn't want him to get a girlfriend..Or how half of the things I do are for him or to keep him safe..Or when I love it when Gordie laughs and smiles..And not to mention when Gordie falls asleep on my lap-

Shit I like Gordie.

"Uhhh..Chris..?" I turned around and judging by Gordie's face I was not just thinking that.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Judging by the way Gordie just bursted out laughing I said that aloud too.

I let go of his hand and looked down. "Um..Let's just go to the tree house.."

I put my hand behind my neck until something I was not expecting happened..

Gordie continued laughing, took the hand off my neck, and linked our hand again, making sure nobody saw. "Uh..Gordie?" We looked at each other and he smiled at me, but I'm sure I just looked confused as fuck.

"Shh.." He whispered in my ear, I felt the rush run through my body. "I'll tell you later.." He winked at me. My eyes opened wider when he rubbed his thumb over my fingers, causing me to let out a loud gulp. That was the first time I've ever been nervous around Gordie though. Being around him makes me less nervous, what was happening?
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We soon made it to the tree house and Gordie let go of my hand.

"Now Chris," Gordie started, climbing up the latter. "You've got a lot of explaining to do. Don't even ask me about the other hand thing, I like to make you happy, and I could tell you needed it. And/or wanted it." He looked down and winked at me.

"I'm sure I can figure out a way to push out some words."

Gordie's giggle is worth any answer he gives me, holy shit.

"Oh my god." Gordie continued, bursting out laughing when he took his seat in the tree house.

"Fuck. I said that out loud didn't I? I did. Fuck. Fuck me, fuck you." I need to stop thinking things.

"Your killing me Chris." He laughed.

After I took my seat I let out a loud sigh. This is gonna suck.

"So..I'm sure you wanna know why I've been thinking things out loud.."

"That would be helpful, yeah."

I sighed again. The last sigh I would make before my life got so much better, or so much worse. "Well..While we were running and yelling at your dad, I've been thinking about how I've always found you so amazing..I know this is weird and I'm just a faggot. But I do truly think your the best guy I've ever met. Running away from Ace and Eyeball, finding that body, talking about our future, and laying in the grass at our spot, staring at the stars. And how you are always there for me like I am for you. Seeing you with your dad and how he hurts your feelings makes me so god damn mad, I would kill the guy if I could. But I know you love him..And apparently I love you. So I won't hurt him that bad, for you. In fact I would do anything for you. Run a race, chug a gallon of anything, I would risk my life for you. I know you don't feel the same as I do, and I'm not just trying to jinx it, I just hope we can still be great friends..The best of friends..Please don't tell anybody..."

Dumb ass just told everybody that's reading this 🤦‍♀️
Which is probably not many anyway so whatever