Right Infront of Me (Nick Jonas + Demi Lovato fanfic)

Chapter 13: Night Cap

Nick’s POV:

Her room smelt like roses, I thought as I followed her into it. She nodded her head at a love seat in the corner of the room and uttered a single word. “Sit”. I made my way over and did as I was told, turning around to face her. She stood with her back against a desk, her arms crossed over her chest. She was wearing a white bathrobe and her hair was bundled up in a bun on her head. She had an expressionless look on her face as she stood there looking at me.

“Okay let’s here it. What do you want to say?” she asked bluntly.

Suddenly I wasn’t so keen on talking. I had been so sure earlier in the bar when I had made the decision to come and then I had spent a better part of the pool party trying to find her while pretending to listen to what Cece had to say. But now as I sat in front of her, with her gazed fixed on me I felt small and not as confident as I had been.

“Look I’m sorry for what I said to you earlier on about you being weak and boring. I had no right to say that and it wasn’t true either I was just mad.” I started.

She didn’t say anything. She just stood there.

“And I just wanted to thank you for thinking I’d be good enough to help you out today. I’m happy our friendship still means something to you.” I continued.

“And what does it mean to you?” she asked now.

I didn’t know what to say; maybe I shouldn’t have used those words. Did we even have a friendship to talk of? After what happened three months ago, were we still fit to call each other friends? She had clearly put the incident behind her because now she had moved on and seemed happy with my brother.

But what about me? I thought I had. Being in NYC had helped clear her from my mind but back here in LA I found her growingly occupying my thoughts again. Even the alcohol and women weren’t helping now. I had to hurry up and get out of this town.  

And I couldn’t let on no matter what. I had to stick with the choice I had made before I had left NYC. Joe’s face kept popping in my head. Damn him.

“I’m hoping I still have it” I replied, half heartedly.

She didn’t say anything now. She just stood there and looked at me. I couldn’t face her and found myself eyeing her floor.

“Is that all you to talk about Nick?” she suddenly asked. “To talk about our friendship?”

No, I wanted to scream but I knew it wasn’t going to happen. “Yeah I don’t want there to be any tensions between us, especially since you’re practically family now. That’s why I came back to the party, to apologise for what I’d said earlier on today.” And that was it. That was all I could’ve said. Any other emotions welling up in me right now threatening to overload had to be sustained.

I looked up at her. She seemed empty. I wondered what was going through her mind.

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Demi’s POV:

That was it. That was all he wanted to say to me. That he was sorry for earlier today and he wanted things to work out between us for the sake of Joe and his family. He had called me ‘family’ and I had winced at it.

“You okay?” he asked.

I’d had enough I finally decided. I was going to hit him right on the face with the bare truth.

“Nick what happened between us three months ago, we need to talk about it” I blurted out.

I saw him tense.

“Nick we can’t move past this and become comfortable with each other if we don’t talk about this.” I carried on.

“It is not something I want to talk about Demi” came the reply.

“Why not?”

“I can’t explain it. I still don’t know how to.” He seemed at loss for words.

“You kissed me Nick.” I put flatly.

“I know. And now I wish I hadn’t”

“But why did you kiss me Nick?” I wanted answers and I wanted them from him.

“Because….. “ he cut off, I could tell he was having a hard time talking. But I wasn’t about to let him off the hook.

“Talk to me Nick. Why?”

He took and deep breath then and replied, “Because I thought I had feelings for you.”

There, it was out. He had had feelings for me.

“You kissed me back” his words caught me off my guard. But somehow I knew they were coming.

I wanted to be honest. “I had feelings for you too.”

His head shot up then, a look of surprise in his face.

“Why did you kiss me and leave me that night Nick?” I pushed on.

“You were Joe’s girl; I had no claim to you. I had to leave and let you be. I had to find some way to get over my irrational feelings.”

Irrational? Was that what he really thought they were?  “But if I had told you I had had feelings for you then, would you have stayed?” I asked with eagerness in my voice.

He pondered on that for a minute. His head once again bent; his eyes trained on the floor so I could not see his expression.

“No.”

His voice cut through me like a knife.

“As far as I’m concerned Demi, you and I will never be together that way. I’m sorry I ever put you in such an awkward position. But NYC was good for me, I managed to clear my thoughts and now I’m back to normal again. Whatever silly thoughts I previously had of us are now gone, but I don’t want us to lose our friendship.”

Silly thoughts. He had called what we had silly. I felt like my heart was dropping and there was no one to catch it.

“Can we be friends still?” he asked, looking at me then with his deep dark eyes. I thought I saw sorrow in them, but maybe I was just mistaking mines for someone else’s.

He had cut me deep. I had been prepared to let all my feelings out on the floor. To tell him I loved him still and that I wanted him to fight for me. But it had not been. He only wanted my friendship. He did not see me that way anymore.

I felt like I had swallowed a rock. “Of course Nick” I managed to choke out. “Just friends. Like old times”.

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AUTHOR’S NOTE: So there you have it guys. their first real talk even though they were both lying through their teeth. this chapter is kinda short because I wanted it to only be this exchange between them. it sort of signals an end for them, especially on Demi's part. And its also the start of a whole new other can of worms. i have a few ideas up my sleeve so bear with me i promise there's a few more twists and turns up ahead :)

TEASERS: Drama involving ‘other’ characters starts in the next chapter. What will it mean for Nick and Demi? Read on to find out J