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"Why you following me?"
"You have an interesting life"
He was a boy looking for an adventure.
She was a girl looking for a meaning to life.
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TW: mention of suicide, self-harm etc,
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4 weeks later
I'm sitting on my couch eating Doritos because there was no single food in my apartment, I made a mental note to go to the nearby grocery store later today, I cross my legs watching my favorite movie, mission impossible. The name kinda explain's my life. My mission to take my life always seemed impossible.
Which is why the period I was in the hospital I made a decision;
Instead of looking of ways to die, I'll look for reasons to live.
Since no matter what I do I still wind up alive. Might as well make living worth it.
Even though it's not as easy at it sounds.
I got up from the couch, grabbed my purse and exited my apartment.
Walking by the sidewalk, I decided to drop by the orphanage where I once was.
When I knocked on the wooden door, a woman that looked in her early 50s opened the door.
"Alex, how are you? We haven't seen you for weeks now." She embraces me in a hug and I hug her back
"I'm sorry Nadia, I was... going through some things."
"Oh dear, you know you can talk to me about anything that's bothering you."
And that's why I loved her so much, Nadia was always there for me, she was practically my mother, I love her so much, she's done so much things for me that my parents never could. I had serious trust issues and it took me a while but I warmed up to her.
When I first came to this orphanage I was 15, my parents were involved in a car crash, I was so happy that day, I didn't even feel any sadness or pain. I know that seems really cruel to say, but you won't find it cruel if you know the full story.
8 years ago
"ALEXANDRIA." mom shouts
I quickly ran as fast as my 12 year old self could down the stairs and approached my mother who was sitting on the kitchen counter. My stepfather was smoking cigarette and reading his newspaper on the couch, his back facing us.
"Yes mother." I answer bowing my head
"Have you done me and your fathers laundry yet?" she asks as she types away on her phone
Holy cow
I had totally forgotten about that, I was tempted to tell her yes and do it Immediately she dismisses me but I decided against because she'll find out,she always does, and when she finds out, the punishment would be far worse.
"N-No mother,i.. I forgot." I stutter nervously
She removes her focus from what she was doing on her phone, her entire attention now on me. Her demeanor changing from normal to angry.
"You what?" She says calmly
"I forgot Mother." I looked down.
"Okay, since ‘you forgot’, I'll make sure you never forget anything ever again" She leaves for a few minutes, I'm still standing where I was before, my palms sweating, heart pounding in my chest,I knew what she was going to do and even though this has happened a number of times, it always hurts more everytime.
She returns back with a long leather whip that has sharp edges that looks like a nail, except bigger.
I kneel on the kitchen floor "Mother pls, pls I beg of you. I won't do it again, I'll go do the laundry right now just don't hurt me pls." Tears already dripping down my face.
She doesn't reply me instead she starts to whip me, I feel a sharp pain in my back. "Ahhhh" I scream in agony
"Stand up." I obey "Now for Everytime I whip you with this belt, I want you to count to 20, if you make a mistake, we'll start over again. understood?" I nod my head. She slaps my face to the side ,
"You reply not nod, now understood?"
"Yes mother."
"Good. now let's start"
Whip
"One"
Whip
"Two"
Whip
"Three"
Whip
"Pls stop, it hurts." I scream
Whip
Whip
After over 30 whips, my mother drags me up for the Floor that had my blood all over it. And threw me in the basement.
"You're going to stay here and think about what you've done," she eyes me in disgust. "You should have never been brought into this world." And with that she closes and locks the door.
She was right, I should have never been brought into this world.
Flashback Ends
I shake the memory from my head and turn my attention back to Nadia
"I'm fine." I smile gently at her.
She looks at me unsure.
"Really Nadia, I'm okay." I'm not
"Alrighty dear, you're here to see Gabriella right?" she asks
"Yes I am." I smile at the mention of my best friends name.
We enter the orphanage and head over to gabi's room.
Nadia opens the door and I enter into what looks like a child's room.
"ALEEXX" She screams as she embraced me into a hug.
"Hey Gabi, how are you?" I bend to her level.
"I'm fine now that you're here.
chuckling I hugged her
Gabriella was the first person I connected to when I was still living here, her story really touched me. Her dad died due to drug abuse and her mum died after she was given birth to. She's been in this orphanage all her life.
"I want to get you something." I tell her
"Hmmm, what's that." My curious 9 year old bestie asks
"Anything you want." I smile
"Okayyyy, I want a teddy bear pls, a BIG ONE" she says dramatically while stretching her hands to show how big she wants it.
"Deal."
We sit on her toy filled bed, I recognize some of the toys I brought for her there. We talk about random things, she says she has a crush on a boy here. So i tell her to go for for it and talk to him.
A few hours had past and it was now 3pm. I said bye to everyone and left the orphanage.
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poor alex, she's been through a lot. What do you predict is going to happen in the next chapter and who's you favorite character so far. Alexandria, Gabriella, or Nadia?
remember this book does not encourage suicide in anyway, suicide is never the answer. Stay blessed.
