Don't Want it to be Awkward

Part 6

As soon as I shut the door I felt my eyes water. I bit my lip trying to stop myself from crying. Why am I even crying? We weren’t even together. I’m being ridiculous. I walked down the hall towards mine and Mahogany’s room but I found myself in front of Matt’s room. I might have gone to Shawn’s if I didn’t know he was sleeping. Eventually a shirtless sleepy Matt opened the door rubbing his eyes “Hey babe.. you’re up early.” He said yawning. “Yeah I just.. I don’t really know.” I said looking down. “come in” he said moving out of the way. I walked in and sat down on the bed. “Didn’t you sleep in Nash’s? Whats wrong? What did he do?” he asked standing in front of me concerned.I sat on his unmade messy bed “Uhm I was supposed to but a situation popped up. You want to go get breakfast?” I asked out of no where trying to change the subject. I didn’t want to talk about Nash. And I didn’t know how to explain everything to Matt anyway. What was I going to tell him? Me and Nash had been sleeping together? But that would ruin my relationship with Matt. “Yeah let me just put some clothes on.. do you want some?” he asked walking over to his luggage. “Yeah sure” I said looking down at my pajama shorts that had flower patterns on them. “Here” he said tossing me some adidas sweats. “You want another sweatshirt too? That one is covered in sand..” he asked causing me to smile a bit “Is that Shawn’s?” he asked pulling out his grey obey sweatshirt “it is” I replied. he tossed me the sweatshirt and I walked to the restroom to change. I looked in the mirror and I looked like a girl version of Matthew Espinosa. I took some of his mouth wash and walked out. Matt was dressed just like me.. or I was dressed just like him I should say. He was wearing the same sweatpants but a grey sweatshirt but a different brand. “Aw we’re so cute” Matt said doing his adorable smile and I couldn’t help but laugh. We walked to the nearest restaurant and got seated. “Awe now look at these 2 love birds.. how cute with the matching thing” our waitress said right before she took our drink order. Me and Matt looked at each other with a silly smile. She came back with our drinks and took our order “So. do you want to talk about whatever happened last night?” Matt asked before sucking on his straw “I would but It’s actually  really complicated Matt..” I said playing with my straw in my drink “Did you and Nash have a thing going on?” He asked scooting his drink away. I chuckled to myself. “In all honesty yeah.. It wasn’t that big of a deal though because he never wanted to make it official so…” I said still playing with my drink. Matt shook his head. “Well his loss then..” Matt said reaching his hand over the table. I looked up at him and smiled and placed my hand in his. “alright so we got the breakfast special!” the waitress said carrying our food. Me and Matt broke our hand holding while she set our food down “Thank you” me and Matt both said at the same time. After we ate Matt paid and we started walking back to the hotel “We need to start packing we’re heading to Washington..and since we’re not flying there we need to leave earlier” Matt reminded me. Matt walked me all the way to mine and Mahogany’s room. “Well thank you for breakfast Matt” I said smiling at him “anytime” he said smiling down at me. I leaned against the door and he put his arm above my head hovering over me. He started to lean down and he slowly placed his lips on mine. It was the most innocent kiss I’ve ever had but in a good way. He pushed him self off the door. “well I’ll see you in a bit” he said winking at me and walking away. I unlocked our room and opened it to see Mahogany packing everything “OH THERE YOU ARE! I NEED YOUR HELP!” she yelled shoving things in her bag “with?” I asked laughing at her “PACKING OF COURSE!” I loved her. no matter how crazy she was she was my best friend. After all.. she kept me in line when these boys pulled me off it. Right when we finished packing there was a knock on the door. It was Jacob “You girls ready?” he asked sticking his head in “Just finished” she replied. He came in and grabbed one of each of our bags. “What a gentleman” I said grabbing my other bag, he just smirked at me. We all checked out of the hotel and saw a big Van in the front. The van had 4 rows and 4 people could sit on each row. Then their was a passenger and drivers seat so 18 people could fit in it. Nash’s dad was driving the van and Hayes sat in the passenger seat. Automatically everyone paired up. Mohagany with Jacob, Jack and Jack, Taylor and Aaron, Matt and Carter, and usually Cam and Nash would pair up but they didn’t. So it was just me Shawn Cam and Nash. “You two want to sit next to each other?” Cam asked pointing at me and Nash. Me and Nash finally looked at each other for the first time since this morning. “I don’t min-” Nash started “No I want to sit with Shawn” I interrupted. “Wow ok..”Cam said looking at both of us “I’m going to pretend there’s no tension in the air…” Cam said looking down at the floor lifting his eyebrows.It wasn't necessarily that Cam knew me and Nash had a thing, which he probably did casue Nash would always be kicking Cameron out of the room and Cam is also Nash's best friend so I'm sure he's told him.. but everyone knew me and Nash were super close. “Come on man” Cam said grabbing Nash’s arm. I could have still sat with Nash. the 4 of us on a row but that would have been awkward. Me and Shawn got our own row and so did #Jox. “Alright everyone get comfortable we have an 8 hour drive ahead of us!” Chad yelled before he started the engine. “yaaaaay” I heard Taylor say in a squeaky voice with sarcasm causing us all to laugh. “Looks like we’re sleeping with each other again..” Shawn said smiling at me. I heard someone make a noise like a gag and turned around and saw Nash glaring at us. He was in the row directly behind us.. great. This is going to one hell of a road trip..