Fill My Naked Empty Space | Book 2

Kabanata 7

Kabanata 7

Taste

I cannot lose my Arcoiris cousins. I give up Kaizer cuz they are more matter to me. Our family is the thymiest that will matter to me the most. And now that Zach is saying this to me, it feels like they're abandoning me. And it fucking kills the shit out of me.

"Kuya? What is happening here?" It was Kelsy who spoke up.

Napaangat ako ng tingin nang makita ko sila Kelsy. They are complete. Ate Meaghan, Marcos, Zandra, Kelsy, Ezekiel, and Lucien. The group of friends that I will always want to be with. The cousins that I will probably wish to have.

"Who's that in front of you?" I heard Ate Meaghan asked on his brother.

Napaawang ang aking bibig sa tanong ni Ate Meag. She clearly sees me here standing in front of Zach and yet she asked his brother like she really doesn't know me. Damn. What the fuck is wrong with them. They hurting me so much.

"Ate Meaghan, ano bang sinasabi mo?" Tanong ko na nanlulumo na ngayon.

Lahat sila ay nakatingin sa akin na parang hindi nila ako kilala. Seryoso at walang buhay ang kanilang mga tingin. Maging si Zandra na hindi ko lubos na matanggap na ganito na ngayon ang trato sa akin.

"Z-Zandra please talk to me. Marcos, Lucien, Ezi, please. Huwag naman kayong ganito sa akin o, please. Pakinggan n'yo naman ako..." I said with my voice stern because anytime soon this will break in the pain.

Tinitigan lang ako ni Zandra at saka nag-iwas sa akin ng tingin. Sila Marcos naman ay diretso at walang buhay lang ang mga matang nakatitig sa akin. Humakbang ako para sana kumbinsihin sila at pakinggan ako nang biglang magsalita si Kelsy muli.

"Kuya let's go. Mag-lunch na tayo dahil may class pa ako this noon. I can't be late. And please, if this beggar here in the parking lot is needing money again, huwag mo nalang pansinin. Let's just go-" I cutted Kelsy off.

"Kelsy I'm not some beggar that you can just shoo away with your money. Dimwit!" I hissed in agony.

"Never mind him. Tara na Kels-"

"Marcos what the fuck is wrong with all of you?!" I raised my voice this time when I can't take what they are spilling to me.

Nasasaktan ako na tratuhin nila ako ng ganito. Alam kong nagkamali ako. Alam kong nag-iba ako. Pero sana naman makita nila na sinusubukan kong itama iyong pagkakamali ko because I will cannot afford to lose them.

"Kelsy, Zach, Ate Meagh, Marcos, Zandra, Lucien, Ezi...parang awa niyo naman. Tang ina. Huwag niyo naman akong tratuhin ng ganito!" I fired to them with my voice in almost about to break.

Pinagmasdan ko sila isa-isa na seryoso lang akong tinitingnan ngayon. We're near the parking lot at sa may bandang mga puno at malapit sa pader na naghihiwalay sa parking at hallway. Walang tao at tanging kami lang ang narito ngayon.

And I'm taking this chance to talk and please them just for us to get back to what we were all before.

Hinarap ni Kelsy ang gawi ko mula sa pagkakaharap niya kay Zach. At si Zandra na kanina ay nag-iwas sa akin ng tingin ay ngayong nag-angat sa akin ng mga mata.

"Bakit Neil? What kind of treatment would you want us to mend for you?" Kelsy scoffed at me while her eyes change into the gloom of fury.

Nagsalubong ang aking mga kilay sa tanong niya. I gritted my teeth as I tried to be brave glaring at them back. Lahat sila ay malalim na nakatingin sa akin ngayon. And standing here in front of them despite their indignant stares, makes me want to back off. But I didn't do it, because I have to get them back.