The Part of Life

First Love

What is the fist love means?

Something that made you fall in love first?

Having boy/girlfriend?

Maybe ex?

Parents?

If it's my first love, it's myself   *You lie.

Of course i love myself   *Lie.

I love my life too   *Lying again.

I very love who am i    *You such a liar!

Got caught yea? huh, very hard to be a liars like you.

No, i'm kidding.

Okay, maybe everyone is different.

There's the parent's,

Boy/girlfriend,

Even Mr. ex.

If i telling the truth, you would no believe it right?

Cause so many i wanna tell you about my story.

So many tears i wanna show it.

I wanna to shout at the top of my voice for relief.

I'm sorry,

I can't tell the truth of my story.

I'm really sorry.

Maybe next time? absolutely not. It's a secret, my private.

I don't know why, cause my mouth always automaticly say "it's okay, i'm fine"

It's the only thing that makes me feel better.

Masks on my face everyday,

Cover up a bunch of nonies,

And the big top is gonna be alright.

This very painful for me.

Sttutering is strong when we're so broken.

Assumed everyone would understand our condition.

This is what it's called "i love myself?"

Called "my life is too precious?

And would it be appropriate to say "my first love is myself?"

Like that???!!!!

How can i love someone else, even if i don't love myself.

Silly me...