The Part of Life

Fear

I have a fear.

Something that scares me.

Worried that something might happen.

Something make me so traumatized.

Make my past is so bad.

I don't wanna remember that things anymore.

If my family is leaving me alone,

They no longer care about me,

They almost drove me completely insane, half of it even.

Yes, there're my biggest fear.

(And the fucking cockroach).

When i was a kid, i lost the figure of my father.

He really doesn't care about me.

He lying to me.

He hurt my mom.

When i was a teen, it's same.

I lost the figure of my father.

But,

I lost the figure of my mother too.

Everyone's busy on their own.

I really almost hate my sister,

I had bullied in my Junior Highschool,

I have a bad body and have a scary face.

I hate myself.

Really really hate of myself.

And i don't believed with other people anymore.

I was scary of my biggest fear.

All is false,

It's all nonsense,

It was all lie.

Now, the scary things i have is...

My psychological,

I'm so scary when everyone leave me again,

I'm so scary if i got insane,

I'm so scary if i be someone else.

I hate this fear.

I hate trauma.

I hate my bad past.

But, that's life.

We can't force everything to be perfect.