It's already 2 a.m. and I'm still stating at the picture that one of my friend posted 8 hours ago.
It was a picture of her and two of her other friends with the caption 'My babes'.
There is an unknown sadness inside me. It appeared when I suddenly saw this.
For some reason I felt left out.
I want to distract myself but I can't.
I am attracted to this post in a negative way.
Since I was young, I longed for people to need me, to want me.
I want to be labeled as 'the best friend'.
I wanted to be the one people seek for.
I want people to hang out with me because I gave them joy.
I want people to like me.
I felt left out all of a sudden. I always ignore them in messages hoping they'll mention me in the group chats because they badly want to talk to me.
I want them to desprately want me in their lives.
I never wanted to be this way.
I never wanted to feel this way.
But everytime I see this type of post. Post that involve other people than me.
I always get insecure.
I can't accept that they have their own group of friends.
I kept on asking questions.
Am I not a good friend?
Am I not fun?
Am I not included?
Am I the problem?
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♡ caza4raia
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