The Tragic Us

Chapter 1

Life challenges will turn you into a stronger person, they say. But why do I feel like Iv'e been getting weaker with everything that's going on in my life.

My father once said to me that there will always be a reason why you meet people and it's either you need them to change you or you're the one that will change their life.

Some people we met are just like a passers by in our life, they will knock into your life and you'll welcome them but eventually they'll leave you anytime soon. Kagaya kung paano siya dumating sa buhay ko. Pero lahat siguro ng dumadating umaalis, and worst is, minsan ang umaalis ay hindi na bumabalik.

I wish he wasn't running in my mind all the time. Pero kahit sa pagpikit ng aking mga mata siya pa rin ang aking nakikita. Memories from the past are so fresh to me na para bang it just happened yesterday. But truth is, two years had already passed yet here I am still in the process of moving on. Maybe because I love him too damn much kaya hirap akong kalimutan siya.

My brain is telling me to forget him, everything that reminds me of him but I can't fool my heart.

Ganito kasi talaga e, pag nagmamahal ka you will either be selfless or selfish. In love you would feel the genuine happiness but it is also only in love where you can feel the pain you never knew that it exist. Na sa sobrang sakit mahihirapan kang bumangon ulit.

I can't believe he pushed me away. Ako ang nagpabago sa kaniya, binago ko siya. Yes! I changed him into a better person, ako ang tumulong sa kaniya, nandiyan ako para sa kanya at higit sa lahat nag sakripisyo ako para sa kanya. Pero kailanman hindi ko sinumbat sa kanya ang lahat ng ito. Not until he wants to end our relationship.

I keep wondering kung ano ang mali, kung ano ang kulang and am I not enough for him to stay and I can't forget how he broke my heart into pieces by saying that freaking heartbreaking line straight at my face.

Tangina wasak na wasak ako nang ipinaramdam ito ng nag iisang lalaking tinitingala ko, lalaking minahal ko ng sobra, na sa sobrang sobra wala na palang natira para sa sarili ko.

It turns out na the person I love the most ay siya rin pala ang mag paparamdam sa akin, that I am not enough. Yes! Not enough for him to stay. He makes me feel less.

On bended knees, I asked him to stay. But he chose to let me go and i know it's really the end of us. Kasi alam ko na siya ang tipo ng lalaki na hindi mababali ang desisyon. Pero bakit noong nag desisyon siya na mamahalin ako habangbuhay ay nabali niya?

Masaya kami ni Troy e! Sobrang okay kami! Kung hindi lang ako naging busy sa pag-aaral maybe we're still good. But then, it is just that one day when everything's messed up.

I even say sorry even when I'm the one who should be getting that ' sorry' from him. Because it's all his fault pero dahil mahal ko siya naging tanga at bobo na ako. I am willing to accept his all mistakes regardless of the pain it will inflict to me.

I am truly and madly in love with Troy. That I don't want us to end.

Shane Lovemier is living with the idea that her ex-boyfriend, Troy Jaze Montero was cheating on her. But the truth will always finds its way to be unravel, it's always been only the truth that will set us all free no matter how painful it would be.

Pero paano kung huli na pala ang lahat? And worst is, this time they really will tragically fall apart.

" Now that you wanna be free Troy,  I'm now letting you go so fly high. I want you to know that it's always been you. Troy Jaze Montero you're always be apart of me even if we end up tragically "
- Shane Lovemier Aragon