I've spent far too long looking for someone for me.
I've looked for the wrong reasons.
I've spent too long looking for who will help me grow and not trying to reciprocate.
I get stuck in a habit of comparisons and my imagination takes over.
Perfection isn't something I should expect or promote,
Nobody is perfect.
I need to find growth.
I need to figure out how to get out of the same mental state I've been in for 10 years.
I can't keep dragging people down with me and getting confused when they want to cut me off.
I can't keep asking for their reassurance of whether I'm ok or not,
I need to make my own decisions on that and figure out myself how to take care of it.
And if I can't figure it out,
I need to keep trying.
I keep writing and not digesting the words I'm reading back.
I know what the problem is and I'm doing nothing about it.
There is no resolution.
