The Golden Flower and The Dream. Book 3 (COMPLETE)

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Feng Hao was resting in his bed thinking about Lillie. His mother went into his room and sat down on his bed.
"Are you okay Feng Hao?" She ask in a worried voice. Scared and worried for her son and for his life.
"No mom.." he replied.
"What's wrong?" She ask him
"I miss Lillie that's all,why is mortal love like this? Forgetting about someone they love?" He said
"You don't understand Feng Hao..your still learning but the more you grow older you will understand" she told him.
"Farewell is an essential growing pain Feng Hao..". He look at her and still didn't understand.
She sighed and continued.
"When you make a mistake you take that in and fix yourself,you learn by yourself with your mistakes. Pain is also like an mistake but different. You need pain to grow stronger. It's part of life.."
"One day you will understand soon of what I mean"
"Mom are you going to arrange my marr-" he was cut off. His mother got up and left his room and close the doors. Never knowing if he will marry Lillie or not.
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The next day
Lillie was awake listening to 絕不能失去你 (Can't lose you) by a band called F4. She enjoyed this song since this was a classic from them. Sugawara heard it and smiled.
"She forgot about Feng Hao but at least she's doing fine. But I'm wondering when will she see him again" he said.
Sugawara wet down and saw Lillie eating her cereal while listening to the music. Sugawara made some cereal for himself and sat down and started to eat.
After eating
Sugawara and Lillie were walking to gym. Everyone was there,even Ukai,Teach,Kiyoko and Yachi. Sugawara change into his gym clothes. They were all starting to ran around the gym. Lillie was still listening to her music. After their running  they're were all doing their spikes,serves,toss,receives and more. Lillie went outside to see if Qing was there but she wasn't still.
"Wheres Qing? She's always here" she said. She saw her walking with Eita. Talking,laughing and etc. Qing enjoyed her time with him. They were close but she was much more closer to Breeze.
"I wonder who is Feng Hao though?" She said. Feng Hao was still in bed not allowed to get up,but he was only allowed to get up when he needs to go to the bathroom. He look at Lillie through a shiny orb that was green. She was there standing and watching Qing and Eita talking.
"I miss the old times with Feng Hao,I wish they would come back and happen all,order again".
Feng Hao put his hand down and look up at the ceiling thinking.
"I promise her but I broke it. This is normal for everyone. Next time I will make sure I promise her and do it right" he said while looking up.
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Lillie was listening to the song she was playing earlier. Takeda heard it and went to her.
"That song is nice and catchy" he said. Lillie nodded,it was at her favourite part.
"Oh baby baby baby,my baby baby,wo jue bu neng shi qu ni (I can't lose you)
Ni shou xin ni sheng ying (your hand,your voice)"
Those were the lyrics that pop into her head since it's the main and she like it. Takeda stand there while Lillie was listening to it peacefully.
"She's in her own world,I should let her be in it" he said and left. He stand beside Ukai to watch how everyone is doing.
"You and Sugawara couldn't be brothers but different" Qing told Eita.
"A lot of people say that,his hair is different is mine" he replied.
"Still,you two could be brother" she told him again. Eita smiled and so did Qing.
"Her smile is enough for everything" Eita told himself that.
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Another petal fell off the rose. Feng Hao was in pain again,"why does this keep happening?" He ask himself trying to find the answer. He knew the answer but he thought there might be more to it.
His mother went to go check on him and saw him in his bed under his blanket.
"He use to do that as a kid whenever he's sad or hurt and wouldn't talk about it" she said. She went to him and removed his blanket.
"Your hiding in the blanket like you did when you were smaller,Feng Hao" she told him.
"You will soon be the emperor if your father pass away,and you need someone to be the empress when I'm gone. Despite you can't manage it yourself,you still need help from someone."
"Are you going to arrange my marriage or let me pick?..." he ask in a nervous voice
His mother look at him and put her hand down. She sat down on his bed again,
"Your father wants to arrange it but I don't,I want you to pick. So we're giving a choice to pick" she answered him. Feng Hao thought about it.
"Too much to think of,maybe later or when I'm ready" Feng Hao said. His mother smiled for the second time in her life. Feng Hao saw her smile. A gentle,sweet and mother smile.
She use to smile a lot when Feng Hao was small. Learning new things,funny things and helping her out with cooking and more. She would laugh and smile at it and when he was sad she would hug him and pet him and sing him a song.

Ever since Feng Hao left the Heaven realm his mother didn't smile ever again. She loves him so much that it makes her smile. Even her husband miss her smiling. If only Feng Hao didn't leave the Heaven realm she could have kept on smiling. But she only smiles for celebrations,parties and more.

"It is difficult to maintain a graceful smile,therefore those who can should enjoy praises."