J's Personal Assistant ( JenLisa)

Always and Forever

Jennie

4 years later

It had been 4 years since the incident happened, 4 years the last time I saw my first love.

Lalisa Pranpriya Manoban, what a beautiful name isn't it? She's my girl, she's no longer here with me,but she's still present in my heart.

During those 4 years, I refused to date anyone. I cannot date someone when I know I haven't moved on from her.

We only spent time not that long, if she's still here, who knows, she might have given me a lot of presents for our Anniversary...she didn't even catch up on my birthday.

"Jennie? I know it's been hard for you. But she's gone, you have to let go and accept it. Do you think Lisa will be happy of what you're doing right now?" Rosè and the others are here with me, we have a gathering for just spending time together at some restaurant.

A lot of men tries to flirt buy I just can't shake the feeling of trying to betray Lisa.

" Jennie, we're not trying to say you have to forget her... It's hard for us either, but we have to accept it.." Jisoo said and I just look down.

"Think Jennie, Lisa will be happy for you if you finally learn to let her go...if it's about your happiness...she will be happy..and that's for sure" Cain stated, Cain ,Tada, Minho,Taemin, Kibum and Jinki had been one of our trusted body guards.

"Find yourself Jennie, you're lost..you have to get back on your real self" Tada added and they all agreed. They have been trying to fix me but it's really hard.

Loving someone in a short period of time is impossible to move on you know? People might think,the lesser the years you have been,the easier you can move on. But now, it's different in my case. In my part, I'm still longing for more of her affection, more time with her, more months and years with her,I'm not satisfied with that small period of time we spent. So it's hard to move on. It's hard...it really is..

"It's hard...it's not that easy.. I'm trying my best too, but she still feels like ...." I pause as I look at the key chain that she gave to me.

"... she's still around..." I smiled as I look at the key chain. And there it goes again. I can see through my mind the smile she made giving me this. I can also see through my mind her doing the hand signs with her brightest smile.

"...And when you feel like she's still around...it feels like it's really impossible to move on.." I stated with a smile and they nodded their heads as a respect.

"...if I am to move on...it would take me a few more years ..." I said as I put the key chain on my pocket.

"To finally let go...I need to still be in the process of moving on.." I said again as I opened my phone and saw a picture of Lisa and me hugging with smiles on our lips. This picture was taken back in Paris.

All those blissful memory...

She's came first as my Enemy...and that's for ruining my plan.

Then she came second as my Assistant...and still I treat her as an enemy

Then lastly,she came as my lover...and I still do love her...

I wish...that isn't the last time.

But reality is reality, it's cruel but manageable. People can be happy on their own way. And I believe I can be, not now, not tomorrow ,no soon,but when the right time comes. I know I can.

"Jennie, You have another visitor here" My mom came with a neutral expression, I know she also doesn't like me to date anyone unless maybe when I can finally let her go.