IRL Tubbo Angst

5

I didn't know why all of a sudden now. I sat up and everything around me started to spin. I heard noises. It was Tommy. I didn't hear what he said though. I felt so sick. I stood up just to almost fall down again. I could finally hear again. Everything went back to normal other than the pain.

The pain was still there and it was so horrible i didn't know what to do. I started crying. It hurt so bad. I couldn't stop crying. Tommy's voice was so muffled i heard nothing but the sound of it. I fell to my knees. I needed to hold over my stomach it was so bad.

"TUBBO??? TUBBO WHAT HAPPENED ARE YOU OKAY???" thank god i could hear again. I couldn't talk though. "TOBY!!" he sounded so concerned. I knew he didn't really care though. "shh shh its okay, toby, its okay im here" his voice was shaking. why?

I was finally able to calm down. My eyes were still so watery and numb it felt unreal. I hadn't cried in ages. I felt so relieved.

"Toby?" the sudden voice shocked me a bit.

"Yeah?" my voice was still shaking from all the crying. It was really hard to talk.

"What happened just now? Are you alright?"

"Yeah i'm fine!! Don' worry about me!" I tried to sound happy but it didn't work that well. How could i let myself cry?? And in front of someone too??? I really was helpless.

"Are you really sure? We can go home if you want"

"I'd like to go home, yes"

We walked back home in silence. It wasn't a long walk luckily. Finally when we were there Tommy suggested we eat something. I didn't really want to but i agreed.

"OOO you got pizza??" he sounded really excited.

"Yeah just make like half a pizza i'm not that hungry"

"Nah you should eat even if you aren't hungry, you're too thin"

Thin. That's a word i never heard anymore. All i ever heard was 'fat' and 'chubbo'. I wasn't thin. Tommy was lying. Why would he lie to me like that??? I can't believe him.

Tommy put the pizza in the oven and set a timer for 12 minutes. When it was done he put it on the table. I felt sick just looking at it. I took a slice and started eating. I couldn't stop eating it now. It was so good to finally eat again. Tommy looked proud of himself like he had done something well. We finished the pizza and went to my room. I felt really sick after eating that pizza. We set up Tommy's mattress and went to bed.

I couldn't sleep. All i thought about was that damn pizza i had eaten. I finally decided to go to the bathroom. Maybe it wasn't too late? I stuck my fingers deep in my throat until i finally started throwing up. I sat there for a while just throwing up all the pizza i ate. It felt so wrong but i was already too fat. When i was finally done i cleaned up all the access throw-up and changed my clothes. I still reeked of puke and it was disgusting. I just hoped Tommy wouldn't notice. I went back to my room and to my surprise, Tommy was awake.

"Where were you?"

"Just in the bathroom"

"For 15 minutes?"

"I... yeah?"

"And what is that smell then??"

"What smell?? I can't smell any smell here hahahaaha"