Rude Boy | hyunlix

Chapter 16

Chapter warnings;...I just.. filth, that is all (please excuse spelling errors)

Hyunjin

"Seungmin's was super cool..make sure you tell him I said have a safe flight" Felix says taking a puff of his vape and of course curious ass me wanted to know what It tastes like.

"Sure, can I try?" I ask and he smiles looking me up and down before handing it over "Sure just don't inhale too hard," He says scooting closer to me on the hard roof floor as I took the purple vape from his hand.

I took one puff of it and immediately starting coughing my lungs out. "I said not to hit it too hard" Felix laughs as I continue to cough handing it back to him.

"Oh, it's not bad It tastes like berries" I joke "Are you okay?" Felix continues laughing at me. "Yes, I'm fine that just caught me off guard, Do your parents ever catch you?" I ask feeling unsettled by the thought my parents might be watching.

I made sure to text my mom not to stay up for me. "They're asleep plus there's nothing they don't know about me already, I get no privacy... they're fucking crazy," He says nonchalantly as If it's nothing, and I frown.

"Hey...don't curse your parents" I say in a low tone unsure as to why he would say things like that about them. The Lee's were always sweet whenever they came over maybe I didn't know about them truly and overstepped my boundaries.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't-" I say feeling embarrassed and looking away. The mood was so gloomy tonight.

"Don't worry about it, what's been on your mind lately?"

"Geez not much" I say jokingly scrolling through his Onlyfans account on my phone and lets out a deep laugh, one that sounded genuine.

"Aww man, Hyun you're killing me" He says and I glance over at him a huge flustered smile plastered over his face.

It was fun teasing him over it.

The quiet took over while I scrolled through his feed and I decided to break the silence.

"Sorry If this offends you but.. are you really gay? I mean I see you flirting sometimes on onlyfans with some female fans and creators and-" I stumble on my words.

"It's all just fanservice I mean yea a majority of my fans are female but I've expressed my liking for men a lot!" He explains.

"Maybe they think you like both?" Felix goes quiet for a moment and I panic why the fuck am I getting into people's business again why did I do that!?

"I mean it's okay! If you are gay or bi or whatever your identity maybe you absolutely do not have to explain anything to me I was just being a curious dumbass as always!" I blurt out feeling awful from my choice of words.

"No, it's fine..to be honest, I'm not really sure myself...If I could be completely honest with you...relationships I've had with guys have always been comfortable and I like women as well it's just... every time I think of being in a relationship with a girl or having sex with a girl it scares me a bit It's not like I don't want too it's just... I don't know" He expresses rubbing the back of his head.

"Have you ever been in a relationship with a woman before?" I and he shakes his head no. "Maybe you're unsure because you never experienced it! It's almost like getting into a relationship for the first time that's all!" Stop Hyunjin your not making any sense.

"That's why I hate labels, I keep telling myself I'm gay but is it wrong to even call myself that If I'm not?"

"Then don't stress over labels just be who you are and who you want to be" Was it terrible advice? Was I even sure about my sexuality? Well actually yeah I was sure about my own identity but seeing Felix stress out about his made me want to help.