JFN 2: Is This Destiny?

Chapter 14

ROSÉ POV

I'm feeling great today, I'm wide awake but my eyes are still close. I felt something comfortable and I can't help but to hug it even more that's when I felt a face. I immediately opened my eyes and goodness I'm hugging Jisoo Kim on my sleep! Her arms are surrounding me though I just froze.

I want to get out of here but her warmth is pulling me back, another thought that I don't want to wake her up.

"She's really awake Chaeng" Jennie's voice was heard that makes me look at Jisoo's direction and her eyes are open!!

I immediately got up as she led out a soft giggle,"you know that was really an uncomfortable position to sleep with." she said. Now I feel embarassment.

"gosh I'm sorry," I face palmed.

"don't be sorry, we can tell she liked it" Irene said that was on top of my bed already.

I just covered my fave with my hands but it seems like Jisoo is enjoying it too. But still it's embarrassing her girlfriend might get mad at me and then I'll be dead.

"it's okay" she smiled at me making my cheeks turn red but I shook it off.

I heared a man's voice downstairs it's probably Mark! I left them in my room while they get ready while I went to him. As I saw him I quickly hugged him, it's probably his day off today which means some little picnic dates! at the beach or the park.

He kissed my forehead and my cheeks, we both sat down next to each other to eat breakfast our helpers prepared. They seem not happy though, but why?

"aunty is there something wrong?" I asked as I saw her with teary eyes while smiling sweetly.

"Oh I just remembered when you and Ji–" she didn't continue what she says when Mark suddenly chocked. I immediately handed him the water while the aunty left us feeling guilty, what's wrong? And what does she meant by that?

I heared footsteps coming down the stairs I know it's the girls already. And I was right, but Jisoo's not here where is she? The three of them took a seat across us.

"Where's Ji–" I got cutted of.

"Lisaya can you pass me the pepper?" Jennie said.

Lisa handed it to her, I thought of asking them once again but I just stay silent. "so wanna go to the beach later?" Mark said. But I don't feel like going out suddenly.

I shook my head now as I can see all eyes are on me, "Are you okay?" He ask, I nodded.

"I just don't feel like coming out the house" I said and stoped playing with my food. I didn't feel like eating either.

Hold on, why does this seem like it already happened? Me loosing my appetite and didn't feel like going out either.

I excused myself on the table and went to my room, why am I like this all of a sudden? I locked the door and went to my bed hugging a teddy bear. A very familiar teddy bear but I don't remember getting or don't remember who this is from.

"here's your teddy!" she handed to me. She got three wins already making her sweat alot. I wiped those sweat of hers and gave her a kiss on the cheek.

Then that smile of hers form on her heart shaped lips.

"you're lucky you got me on your team, or else you didn't get any prizes" she then laughed as we went to this seat with a big umbrella and ordered milkshakes.

I shook that thought of making me face this teddy bear, I threw it away knowing it could be from someone else. But who? I got shocked when someone picked it up.

"Jisoo?" I said while sitting on the bed. She picked up the teddy bear then wipe the dust out of it smiling and a little bit teary eyed.

Out of confusion on how she acts with it I asked her the question,"were you the one who gave that to me?"

If she did then she might be the girl who's face is blurred in my so called "flashbacks" is it really a flashback? I mean if it's her who gave me that teddy bear then she's the one who came with me in the amusement park and kissed me in the ferris wheel.

She adverted her eyes on me looking straight at my eyes still with those tears she's trying to hold. She slowly shook her head saying no, weird then who could it might be?

"But atleast don't throw it, someone really special gave it to you" she smiled.

"you know all along? then who? all I know is that she's a she, she have long brown hair, and a voice so soothing, much smaller than me.." I looked up to her slowly, her eyes were still on mine.

Jisoo pov

I'm trying to stop myself from crying, she might have those little flashbacks. I wanna kiss her forehead and hug her so tight, my eyes sparkled as she discribed me. I can't do anything but to smile to it, and stare.

The right day will come that you'll know everything. It's just not today, I found the note it was inside your drawer all along folded into a tiny square so that it's not easy to find. I put it inside my pocket so you couldn't find it.

I'm ready to tell you everything, I'll tell you our story from the past. On the first day we met, the first time you confessed to me and probably leave all those hurtful moments in the corner.

But what I'm not ready about is you knowing you've been living 5 months with lies around you. I know you hate lies, and I know you'll probably hate me too if you find out. Now I'm thinking should we make it sooner?

"Jisoo tell me. I need to thank her," she begged and held my hand while I just stood there mesmerising her eyes.

I can say she really wanted to know that person also known as me.

"I need to thank her and give back the love she had been giving me," she says. "how'd you know that all of that flashbacks aren't just a dream?" I ask her.

"That explains the teddy bear stupid!" I led out a soft giggle.

"Jisoo tell me, please" she said with those puppy eyes and a pout to match, I pinched her cheeks and move closely to her.. face.

"I can't tell you," I then pecked her nose with my finger basically staring at her lips by now. "But.. I have some clues on what you have to do to find this mysterious person" I said and sat beside her. She's still not letting go of my hand.

"Open your ears, eyes, and especially heart," I smiled.
"Who knows, you might see her standing infront of you someday. Remember Chaeng love isn't found in one person only" I smiled as she slowly loosened the grip on my hand. Enough for me to let her go, not a goodbye just a fairwell, then left her room and went home too.

Rosé pov

Urgh I can't sleep! Jisoo's voice keeps on echoing inside my head what does she mean by 'open your ears, eyes, and heart'? Is there something I have to see or feel before I see this mysterious person?

Why can't she just tell me directly, it's that easy. I don't want to play games right now.

Or maybe, I have to discribe that person, I opened my lamp sitting on my study table and start on drawing that girl I see in my dreams and flashbacks.

Dropping down the truth here, everything is getting clearer and clearer. I'm good at drawing so it'll be easy for me to identify her right? well hoping.

I decided to sketch her face shape, hair, and everything to her that I could see clearly. I didn't notice the time so I stoped sketching and dream about her, who knows maybe this time it'll be more clearer that I could find who that mysterious girl is.

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