The Devil Within

A Mess

I fall and fall into this black hole, my hair brown hair flying. Realization strikes me, I am about to fall and break my nose, another realization I don't even know my power. Splendid, I am of no good use. I try to use my power but it doesn't seem to work, nothing seems to work. It feels like I don't even know myself, what happened? I try to concentrate on my mind to get an emotion so I prevent myself from falling but I was too late. I fell on the floor so hard that I bet I looked like a mashed potato. I feel numb, I lift my head and look around to see where I was but I see myself sleeping there. I get up on my feet and walk towards myself. Am I dead? I touch myself after seeing me lying there probably dead. If this is me then who is that? I look to the right and I see Elektra and my mother crying, my father comforting the both of them while he was crying. This made no sense. I walk over to them but no one seems to see me. I was a ghost. I don't remember how I died but I am dead, that's why no one can see me. But how was Elektra alive? I walk over to the left and I see Zyphr, Coven, Alia, and other people crying. Something is wrong. I concentrate on myself and close my eyes. I open them again and I cannot find my family, everything is changed. I find Elektra dying, my mother, coven, and Alia, all those memories good and bad, most of them bad. I just feel too much that I crumble down wherever the heck I was.

I watch how Elektra died in Infront of me and how I did nothing like an idiot. The blood was all over me and still, I hadn't moved an inch. Pathetic me. I try to push away what I was seeing, but I watch myself kill her within a blink of an eye. I just feel helpless, heartless. I feel myself fall in every way I can. I wish I'd die instead of her. Kill me instead of her. Did I kill my sister? But again, I watch my mother kill her, there was a ring of light around her, was she the goddess? ENOUGH. I crumble too much so I don't feel anything, I can't even cry, I feel that numb. "Pull yourself together," an away too familiar voice said, "pull your pathetic self together". Elektra's voice ringing inside me, but I didn't know how her voice came up during the exact situations.  IShe was dead, how is she speaking? I feel way too messed up. "This is not how I taught you," she said again. A force pulls me up making me lay down looking up. Is that force Elektra's? who knows. "Did you forget the one thing I always told you" She questions me. Is she lecturing me when I am trying to figure out what the heck was happening? Oh yes, she is. I shut my eyes.

"Direct"

*Poke*

"your"

*Poke*

"own"

*Poke*

"God damn"

*Poke*

"Ship."

Ouch. Is she for real? That hurt so bad. Oh. How did she poke me? Did she just say that? I lay on my stomach trying to process everything because nothing made sense. Absolutely nothing made sense. I tried to focus on what Elektra said now. When we were little, I always wanted to be myself. Normal, happy nothing to worry and be a free bird, but I was the daughter of a king, had to be perfect in everything, and I couldn't go anywhere I wanted to. So one day I ended up crying so badly in the corner because someone had said I wasn't like my sister. I never did anything I wanted to do "Direct your own ship," my sister said when I was crying "huh?" I sobbed out "Direct our own ship E, you can do what you want you like all you have to do is to be the captain of your own ship, don't care about people because later they will say how good captain you are of your ship" and I simply nodded. "Direct your own ship" That changed me, that line which had four words and seventeen letters changed my life. Does my mind quickly flash to how a hooded man had drugged me? It wasn't really nothing is real. I was too dumb not to realize that. Sue me. 

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Heyyy!! My apologies because I couldn't update in the morning and for making the story a bit (okay maybe more) dramatic. Also, I am on a little vacation but I will be back to normal by next week so yay you will be getting updates exactly on Tuesday mornings :) Do let me know how it was. Love you all. see you xx