OKUMURA

Chappy 4- loss

Tw⚠️: angst and possible suicidal thoughts(idk I haven't decided yet) and swearing? this applies for the whole fic but I'll put this at the start of each chapter.

Bon pov:
I was about to visit Rin when I heard talking from the other side of the door. I peeked in to find mephisto and amaimon in ther with Rin and, just as I was about to go and help, Rin gave both of them a hug and called them big brother. I was shocked beyond belief because I thought Rin wanted to become an exorcist like all of us and that he hated demons. But I guess we took it too far. Me especially. I guess I drove him to these pieces of shit. To the two devils whom he now considers family.

I guess I must have zoned out because I looked up to see Rin and his 'brothers' jumping through a goopy hole in the floor. I must assume that it's a ghennah gate, which unfortunately means that Rin is going to ghennah, he'll meet his other 'brothers' and his so called 'father' and they'll brainwash him. They'll corrupt his pure little soul and turn him into one of them when all he wants to be is one of us, a human.

They'll pay, they will pay for hurting my little Rin.
I promise Rin, I'll save you, I'll save you no matter what.
I quickly turn around and head back to class as fast as I could to warn the others about what's happened.

I burst through the cram class door and all heads turn in my direction. I bend over with my hands on my knees gasping for breath as I choked out between pants "Rin.........gone......... brothers..........ghennah" I said with a raspy voice and the others instantly swarmed me. "What do you mean gone?" Spoke shura
"Did he go to ghennah?" Quizzed kuro
"What brothers? I thought yukio was his only brother?" Asked paku
"What the hell happened to you bro" asked shima
"D-does that mean okumuras finally gone for good?" Questioned konekomuru
"So we don't have to be afraid of that demon anymore?" Asked shiemi
"Where the hell is he you dumbass?" Kamiki asked with venom in her voice.

"So basically I went up to visit Rin to give him a lecture or two on how he should just go die and all that shit" I said and noticed a set of eyes boring their way into my skull. "And saw him with mephisto and that amaimon guy" "who?" Asked shima. "The guy from training camp with the broccoli hair, keep up" "and they all jumped into this goopy hole in the floor with loads of evil squelchy angry heads in it with demon like statues around the edge and, I can only assume, it's a ghennah gate so that means that he's going to visit his so called 'brothers and so called 'father' who I thought he hated but apparently not because he's gone to meet slash visit them and it really pissed me off that he would betray us all like that" I turned to face the owner of the eyes burning their way into the back of my head to find kamiki.

"And what the hell kamiki? What's up with your attitude? It's Worse than usual" I spoke, glaring right back at her. "Didn't think you cared about anyone other than your sweet little paku" she continued to glare harder right back "well sorry to disappoint but I do have feelings ya know and I felt sorry for Rin because of how all you ass hats treated him. Did you ever think about his feelings in all of this? No of course you didnt." She sighed

"I was the only one who cared, well me and shura and kuro, but the rest of you didn't give a shit, talking about him behind his back with full knowledge that he could hear you. He used to come to me and shura to talk about his day and quite often it'd be all the shit he heard about himself from you all. You dank bastards!Do you all know that he's suicidal? Huh? And probably friggin depressed and  anxiety too? Well did ya?"She screamed in our faces. "Of course not, you only ever think about yourselves and if you ever took a moment out of your day to think about others then you might have noticed that what you were doing was really affecting Rin" she sounded really disappointed in us but then started up again, yelling in our faces.
"He always said he wished he could die but couldn't because his brother kept the box of blessed blades under his bed locked. Think guys!! All that stood between our friend and eternal rest was a lock. A friggin lock!! And if yukio forgot to lock it one day then he wouldn't be here today." Her demon foxes quickly appeared behind her with an angry snarl on their faces "And don't any of you dare say anything because if you do I will kill you where you stand" she threatened, narrowing her gaze at us all as then storming out of class with her foxes, kuro and shura not far behind, the demons growling at us as the five of them walked out of the room.

It was in that instant that we realised, we were all such awful people and that we have to make it up to our friend, well, now former friend.
God give me the strength for this, to make up with the one person I hold feelings for, to make up with the love of my life. I can only hope that he will forgive me, and that he accepts this love that I hold in my heart. This love that's reserved especially for him, for that silly little demon boy I fell for in Kyoto.
Damnit Rin okumura. I love you, but I know that after everything that's happened, I can never ever have you as my own.

God damn it, I can never make up for what I've done but I can sure as hell try.

A/n: Aaaaaaand done!!!!! Bosh another chapter done!! With a word count of 1040!! Enjoy my blue exorcist loving pals!! :) adiós