Blue Birthday

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August 13 , 2017,

Huh, it's raining outside. I means it's raining again.

Oh, hi! Let me introduce you my name. My name is
Oh Nari. Today I'm turning 18 years old. Yup today is my birthday.

Same as past years, it always raining right on my birthday.

I'm sitting at my study desk, which placed in front of the window in my room, while writing this.

Everyone should be happy on their birthday, right? Turning one more year. Will face a new age life. Celebrate it with happy feeling.

But it doesn't happen to me.

Instead of happy, I was felt sad every years on my birthday.

It is all started when I was turns 5 years old.

I lost my hero of my life. I lost my first love, first men I love in this world.

I lost my dad. He dead right on my 5 years birthday.

Could you imagine it?

On that day, my dad just got his time to came back home. He used to be a pilot, travel after for two weeks.

Whole day, I waiting for him to came back home as he promised me to gave me a special gift.

My mom were worried whole day, it was raining so hard.

But instead of welcoming his comeback, me and my mom got news that he is found dead while driving home.

He got an accident.

My mom cried out once know that. We couldn't believe it.

I want to cry also on that day, but my tears doesn't even gave me a chance to do it. My hearts already hurt so bad.

Is this his special gift that he means?

All I can do that time is just stand speechless next to where  my mom has collapsed. My mouth feels freeze to speak.

Since then, I lost my mom soul too. Now she is not the same as she was before my dad die.

She may there with me, but her soul somehow doesn't even there.

I know how big my dad and mom loves.

Guess what happened after year by year every on my birthday?

I lost one by one. It all gone year by year.

I lost my happiness, my friends, people I love and I lost myself.

It's like I was growing up alone. My mom never greet my birthday anymore. She just going to gave me a gift without wishes me.

Not just my mom, but there's no one wish me. I don't have any friends.

It's not no one want to be friends with me, but me, distant myself from people. I never want to talk to people.

In that way, I will never lost anyone again.

I don't know yet, what's more I lost today. What is important, outside was raining which make me felt so sad.

I may not shows my sad expression because I don't know how to shows it with my face. But I can still feel it.

People at school called me flat.

It was because I keep on shows my poker face in any situation.

I always ignore when people call me with that name. I have my own name, so why they create that stupid name for me.

"Nari"

My hand stop as my name was called. I knew that soft voice.

That's my mom.

I turn my body to face her. She smiled looking at me then walked where I was.

She then stoke my hair softly. Her smile never disappeared. Mom still look beautiful even she's already in her 38 years old.

As people said i was expresslesss person, I can't show my smile right now. But deep inside my heart, I was smiling to see my mom.

"Here, my gift for you." She put a small box wrapped with blue paper to my table.

"Thankyou, mom" I said while can't take my eyes from the small box.

Without waiting again, she then walked out from my room. I know what she's going to do.

Cry.

I don't want to stop her, because I know it. My birthday only remind her of my dad death.

💙to be continue🔵

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©cherienasya