My Boy (Sapnap)

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TW: swearing

Sapnap pov

I ended the stream and look at her.

"Seriously y/n, when were you going to tell us?" I ask. I am hurt that she doesn't tell us things.

"Sapnap I swear I was going to tell you, I never had a chance!" she says, reaching for my arm, but I pull away from her.

"When y/n? When were you going to tell me? Us?" 

"Today, after the stream. I never got the chance to talk to you guys!" she pleaded. I don't care. I looked away from her.

Your pov

He looked away from me.

When did you get the call?" he choked out. I hesitated.

"When did you get the call y/n?" he repeated, voice icy cold, nothing like the soft voice he normally gives me. My heart broke.

"The same day of the interview." I whisper, not able to look at him.

Sapnap pov

"The same day of the interview." she whispers, avoiding my gaze. This pissed me off.

"That was 9 fucking days ago y/n! You could have told us before then!" I yelled, boiling with rage. She had 9 fucking days to tell us and she didn't? That is ridiculous! 9 days.

"No I couldn't have. I didn't have a chance to tell you!" she yelled back.

"You had 9 whole days don't you dare say you didn't have a chance!"

"I fucking didn't! God you are so dense aren't you? I had two days to process everything. I got the call the 2nd, the 4th-9th  we were busy with the birthday vlog. Hell I barely talked to any of you the 6th- the 9th. Then, after taking care of 5 people AND myself for 3 days I finally got a break yesterday to spend time with my best friend. And today I promised to give you hours of content." She yelled back at me," Do you know how fucking hard this is for me? So no Sapnap I didn't have time to fucking tell you." she finished, her voice breaking and tears starting to flow. She turned away from me.

My anger started to dissipate. I never realized this was so hard for her. I never even thought about how she felt with all of this. I walk over and try to give her a hug. She is full fledged bawling now, but she pulls away from me. I grab her arm and pull her into my chest. I wrap my arms around her, holding her into place, and she immediately starts struggling.

"Get the fuck off me!" she threatened, pushing against my chest. I held on to her even tighter. She kept trying to push me off of her. I leaned my head close to her ear, never letting go. She started to calm down.

"Shhhh, its okay." I whispered, rubbing circles on her back, trying to fully calm her down. She started crying harder. 

"Shh, let it all out, let it out." I whisper. "I'm sorry for yelling, its not your fault love. I over reacted, I'm sorry." 

She collapses in my arms, crying. I slowly drop to she floor to sit and she clings to me. I hold her tight, rubbing circles on her back. 

After a few moments I try to get up and she grabs my wrist with super human strength.

"Don't go Sap." She pleads. She is crying violently and starts to hiccup. I take off her hat to try and help her cool down. Her hiccups get worse so I try and get up again, but she grabs on to my arm again.

"Please stay, I don't want to be alone." she says, looking up at me. Her face is red and here eyes puffy from crying. Her mascara is smeared. Her appearance is heart breaking. I grab her hand and pull her off the floor. She buries her head in my side while wrapping her arms around my side and I lead her to my dresser. I get the box of tissues off it and hand her one. Gingerly, she takes it and wipes her face. She then sinks back down, forcing me to follow. I wrap my arms back around her.