Deja Vu | Joshua Hong FF

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She asked as you didn't have the energy to eat at all, all you wanted was answers and to know the truth. You kindly declined your mom as you opened the book again

While reading it you couldn't help but notice that the exact words and actions were written in that notebook was the same in your dream just a while ago
‘ is it possible? ’ you asked yourself as you looked back at the book

You kept reading

A cold winter day, it was a few more days before Christmas and joshua planned to go out of town with me to meet his other relatives. He wanted me to tag along since he also wanted to spend time with me and get along with his relatives

My things were already packed and I was excited, something unexpected suddenly happened. I received a phonecall from joshua's mother, she sounded like she was in pain and her voice was breaking

“ dear... ” her words made me feel scared and worried at the same time

“ yes? ”

“ joshua...

is..

gone..”

I froze and didn't believe her at first since she would intend on making jokes a lot but after hearing her crying over the phone, it made me realize that she was telling the truth

“ how? ” i asked her

“ he was reported dead, he was killed with multiple shots on his chest as the doctors tried to do everything but sadly.. they couldn't.. ” she explained to me

“ no.. no.. no... ” i ended the call and sat down on the floor, i hugged my knees while i started crying

you cried your heart out and couldn't accept it
“ he's really gone.. ”

time has passed and I attended his funeral, i was crying uncontrollably while my family and relatives felt sorry for me since I had to go through so much pain

I looked at his body inside the coffin
‘ why did you do this? why did you leave me so early? I thought we we're going to spend our lifetime together? ’

“ your a traitor.. ” I felt helpless without him by my side as he completed the missing piece inside my broken and messed up heart

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You stopped reading as even you felt brokenhearted by her story, she had to go through such pain by herself without her partner by her side

‘ is it possible that she was reincarnated to me? ’ you thought to yourself as you even thought that you were going crazy

‘ or all the things that happened in her past.. is going to happen to me? ’ you read the first page again for confirmation

your great great grandmother and her joshua did meet at the same library you met joshua at. you kept reading and noticed that she even mentioned the carved tree and the last time you went to Hoshi's flower field your name and joshua's name was carved there as well

You looked at the school name and school year that your great great grandmother wrote
“ Downtown Magnets High School

School year 1981-1982 ”

‘ okay.. fine.. I'm going to do something crazy tomorrow.. ” you closed the book and layed down on your bed, you wished that you continued your dream but sadly no

you woke up the next day bright and early, you didn't had the time to answer minghao's messages because you were in a hurry. You got ready to head out as you went down the stairs