vivid dreams - BTS

life goes on

-Querida's Point of View-

I always want something new and different to happen in my life. Whatever happens, new things always excite me. When I saw him and got to know him, I started to feel the emotions I lost. Excitement, happiness, joy, passion, pleasure. They all appeared one by one. 
The things that make me happiest in this life are sharing my happiness with the people I love the most. But for the first time, I was having a hard time approaching my best friend. 

Marw.

She didn't accept what I said. She didn't want to accept it. Or the way I approached her was wrong.  I was afraid to say something to the person who has been in my life for years, I was constantly thinking to myself. After I realized why it was like this, that she wouldn't accept it, I stopped telling her things and tried to move on with my life, but it didn't work. Something was missing and not being completed.

I was happy with my ex-boyfriend, but I was never satisfied. And after a while, everything started to get monotonous and I got really bored of it. I started not being happy, but I was pretending to be happy. And pretending to be happy started to really upset me after a while, I didn't want to stand next to you. I didn't want to see him, I don't want to do anything with him. 

I was trying to get on with my life somehow, but I couldn't. I couldn't do it with him, everything was upside down and I decided to go.

And finally, I found him, the most beautiful thing in my life happened to me. January 29, 2020. A light has come into my life. I wanted to follow that light. Every time I took a step towards him, I began to see all the colors in my life. On the map he created for me, I could see the rainbow at the end of everything. For the first time in my life, I wanted to do something for myself, not for anyone else. And I followed that light. 

This is the first time I left home without telling Marw. I didn't even say anything to my ex-boyfriend. I decided to go to a place I did not know. South Korea. To his city...

Who is he? Park Jimin is one of the BTS members.

I want to tell you about my light. BTS  has been my light. They made me see things. But on the other hand, they became the biggest problem between me and my best friend. It was the first time that the person in my life since 2009  was so harsh towards me. She didn't notice that I was happy and getting better. This made me very sad. I don't want to lose her in any way. Because she was more important to me than anyone else.

And I decided on my own, that I would never tell her anything about BTS. It was the first time I was hiding something from her. I couldn't tell her the things I loved. 

When I came to Korea, I had no idea what to do. I really didn't know.
I first got myself a small apartment and started living there. It had only one room, kitchen, and bathroom. And it had a balcony where I could put a small dining table. It was just like the rooms in the university dorms but I felt peaceful and belonged somewhere the first time. 

Life was going on in Korea but some things were still missing...

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For the first time, I believe in destiny because I found it
Here we will talk about the things that happen in our lives with you.  
I would be so happy If you can be so kind  to us and don't call us ' delulu '

This is our life right now like this right now.

This is my point of view, Marw will share her's in her profile, you can go and check 

MarwHope 

https://www.wattpad.com/user/MarwHope