The Girl Who Lives For Madness Season 1 (Madness Combat X Fem!Reader)

Remembering... It hurts

TW: ANGST
Y/N = Your Name

Y/N POV:

"Please..... Don't make me go through it again. *Hic* please...."
"Oh really? After you left us to die you think we're gonna let you go just like that?"
"Isabella I tried so hard to save all of you! You just disappeared in the forest! I looked everywhere for you and you said nothing!"
"Well maybe you should've left me home so I could've stayed safe."
"The clown would've found you either way. *Sob*"
"Oh so you think we're weak now?"
"No Mikey that's not what I said!"
"Really? I mean when we confessed we couldn't hunt, kill or fight you had that face of what do you call it? Doubt."
"Sob* I...... Didn't think that."
"Than want to explain why it took so long to answer?"
"Jason.... Please, you have to believe me I tried saving you I swear!"
"Hah! You expect me to believe you after you left us? Pathetic."
"I swear.... I...di...dn't....le..."

I jerk awake as I wake up from that awful nightmare. "I'm sorry..." I said as I slowly start to cry. "I tried.... I really did." I started to cry even more when. "*Knock* *knock* Y/N you okay?" Deimos asked from the other side of the door. "Y-yeah I-I'm fine." I replied trying not to sound suspicious. "Please open the door...." Deimos said. I panicked not knowing what to do. "Y/N.... Open the door please." Deimos said again as I tried to come up with an excuse. "I'm still dressing!" I said hoping he fell for it. "You're lying." Deimos replied. "N-NO!" I yelled trying to get him to leave. "You talk fast when you're lying, now come on open the door." Deimos said. At this point I had no choice so I just opened the door. "Hey what happened?" Deimos said worried. "I-I-I had.... A nightmare." I replied.... "Wanna talk about it or," Deimos asked still very worried. "Y-Yeah I guess." I replied. "Okay, go do you're thing first I'll be in the living room and before you come to me 2Bdamned will come check on you to check on you're.... Wound." Deimos said. "Yeah and thanks." I replied. I did my morning routine and got dressed. Shortly after I finished I heard a knock. "Hey it's 2Bdamned." 2Bdamned said on the other side of the door. "Oh morning." I greeted in a quiet voice. ".... You okay?" He asked "Yeah I'm fine." I replied. "Okay, how is your stomach?" He asked. "Still in a lot of pain." I replied "Hm.... Take these." He said as he gave me some painkillers. "Two of them per 2 hours, it'll help with the pain." He said as he gave me another another box of pills. "This should help with nausea or any other affect such as sudden fever, coughing up blood and sudden dizziness." He said. "Well that's comforting." I said sarcastically. "Yeah take 1 of the other ones after 30 minutes, right now you need painkillers."

He said as he walked out of the room. I did what I was instructed to do and went to Deimos. "Hey, how ya feeling?" Deimos asked as he helped me sit down. "Not too good." I replied. "That nightmare got to you huh?" He asked. "Yeah." I replied. "Wanna talk about it?" He asked. "Yeah..." I replied. "It was about my friends..." I started. He hummed in response. "I keep getting nightmares about them blaming me for they're deaths... Its..... Scary..." I continued in a soft voice. "Sorry...." Deimos said as he patted my back. "Its not your fault." He said with a sweet voice. "Morning." Sanford greeted. "Mornin' San." Deimos greeted back. I said nothing. "Hey Y/N you okay?" Sanford asked concerned. "No." I replied not denying the fact that I literally am not okay. "What happend? It wasn't Hank was it, I swear I'm gonna kill him." Sanford said. "She had a nightmare and well let's just say, it's traumatizing." Deimos explained to Sanford. "Oh sorry, um wanna talk about it?" Sanford asked. "Sure..." I said in a soft voice. "Its about my friends.... They keep blaming me for they're deaths.... They've been 'haunting' me for 5 months now." I explained. "Have you tried making peace with they're deaths?" Sanford asked as he sat down on the recliner. "No..... I can't..." I replied with tears falling down my face. "That's the problem." Sanford explained. "What do you mean." I asked

"Well, you haven't made peace with they're deaths. Getting the same nightmare for 5 months isn't normal and it means that you haven't made peace with they're deaths." Sanford explained. "But how am I supposed to do that?" I asked slowly starting to breakdown. "Hey! Hey! Calm down! Have you tried going back to they're place of death?" Sanford asked. "I..... Don't wanna go there..." I said turning my face away from both of them. Deimos patted my back and said "If you really want this to stop than that's the only way you can do it." "I can't go back there I just can't..." I said crying. "We'll go with you..." Sanford said. "I... I'll think about it...." I replied as i went back to my room.

Author POV:

Sanford and Deimos looked at each other worried. "What're we gonna do?" Deimos asked?. "I dunno but we have to convince her some how." Sanford replied. While you were in you're room Sanford and Deimos went outside and talked about how they were going to convince you. "Well we could talk her into it." Deimos suggested. "No she'll make her choice, right now we need to give her some space." Sanford said. They went back inside and didn't do anything for the rest of the day...

To be continued

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A/N

Hello comrades! How are ya today? If your doing well than great! If not than I hope this was able to get your mind of whatever your dealing with. Today was a sad chapter mainly bcuz you feel guilty for letting you're friends die and you haven't made peace with they're deaths. So the rest will happen in part two. And I'll post a chapter asking you guys a few questions so stay tuned for that other than that I got nothing else. Have a great day/afternoon/evening and I'll see you in the next chapter

Cya dudes