The story of us (Tronnor)

Chapter 3 : hiding myself

Connors POV:
I don't know why but I can't seem to tell anyone my secret. I want to tell Troye so bad because he's my best friend. I've been denying it since I was 12 and in middle school. I can't do it anymore. I'm not happy and for the past year I've been standing in front of my mirror eTroye Sivan Mellet was a very smart boy. He had erudition, knowledge through many years of study, especially in the music field. He knew the different types of music, the different ways to make beats, and much more. He was so skilled that he knew how to play every instrument you could put in front of him. Troye loved music more than anything in the world!
Troye was in the middle of creating a brand new song to hopefully put on his newest EP, TRXYE. He was going through different beats in his head, some slow and soft, others erratic, unpredictable. He decided to he liked the sound of the erratic beats and then started to make the official beat to the song. To him the beat was ethereal, beautiful, and he hoped his fans would think so too.
He then started to come up with the lyrics to fit the beat. "Loving you was sleeping through the storm..... But I don't feel like dreaming anymore..." 'That was good!" Troye thought. He snapped his head up as he hears a sound, turning the beat off in the process. "KNOCK KNOCK" he hears he sound clearly this time getting up to answer the door. As he opens the door his manager and best friend, Connor Franta, comes in to ask how the work is going. "It's going great!" says Troye "I have the first verse and the beat to the song down do you want to hear it Con?" "Absolutely, mate!" Connor replies.
After listening to the song Connor made sure to eulogize, praise highly, to Troye just how good the song was so far. "It's terrific Troye boy!" he shouted in glee absolutely in love with the song so far. "Do you have any other songs I can listen to? I just love hearing your voice it's so good!" Connor asked excited to hear more. "Uh... I... well... Um you see I may have some but I don't know about you hearing it just yet Con..." Troye stated giving Connor an evasive, avoiding, answer that he was upset about hearing. "Alright, alright I'll let you get back to doing your thing. But I expect to hear some of those secret songs you have soon Troye boy got it?" "Ha-ha, sure thing Con, you'll be the first I show them to!" "Ha-ha, I better be!"

very morning and night trying to get the words to come out of my mouth. I finally did it yesterday morning, and to be honest it felt so good! I finally got it off my chest but now I want to tell someone. I want that someone to be Troye, which is why I'm on my way back to the studio to ask him to come to dinner with me.
As I reach the studio I suddenly get nervous. What if he gets mad? Will this ruin our friendship?
I shake my head to get rid of the thought. I reach the room he's in and knock, just to have it open almost immediately.
" Hey Con da Bon! What's up?"
"Hey Troye Boy! I was wondering if you wanted to go to dinner with me I want to talk to you about some stuff."
Way to go Connor! I thought. Now he knows something's up!
"Uh sure Con give me a sec to get my coat...... Alright let's go!"
"Wanna get pizza?" I asked as we got in my car.
"Yah that sounds good"
-------at the restaurant-------
We sat down in our usual booth in the back corner of the pizza parlor. I instantly felt the nerves rise in my chest again and I think Troye noticed.
"Hey, are you ok Con?"
"Uh yah I'm alright. Why don't we order and then we'll talk"
"Alright, the usual?"
"Ya"
I felt shakey still as he ordered our usual, a large pepperoni pizza and an order of half baked bread sticks with cheese sauce.
"So what's up Connor? You seem a bit out of it."
"W-well you-u see I-I um I *cough* I have uh been dealing with this s-since I was 12 and uh I-I uh....." by now I had tears in my eyes. Why was it so hard!!
"Con it's ok babe take your time..."
"I-I'm gay Troye..." I couldn't stop the tears anymore as I sat waiting for a response of yelling or some type of anger.. But it never came. But what I did feel made me relieved. I felt Troye sit next to me and hug me tight to his chest telling me it was ok.
"Connor I don't mind! I'm so glad you told me though, I'm so proud of you for being able to figure yourself out and become comfortable enough to tell me."
"Thank you Troye Boy...."
The only problem was that I was in love with this little twink and I doubt he'd ever fall in love with someone like me....
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Three chapters in one day:)
Love,Sierra:)