Lying in the garden

The Car Ride Home

After school I decided to get a ride from a guy named Jake . Jake is on the football team he's nice and cute but I think me and him are better off friends maybe he might even end up being my best guy friend this year . He's a junior , he has blonde hair and baby blue eyes , he dives a rusty pick-up truck , he tells me his mom is never home she's always with her boyfriends he says she probably is doing drugs . Jakes the kind of guy who looks like he has everything but is a genuinely nice guy that grew up with no dad and a mom who was never there for him . In the car Jake starts to talk but he sounds nervous .

"So , you goin to the game tonight ?"

"I think I might . You think you guys will win ?"

"I think it will be a close game . Clara ?"

"Yeah ?"

"You like Kol , don't you ?"

"Jake , I don't even know him and from what I do know he's not the kindest guy . "

"Clara he really is a good guy he's just had a really hard time dealing with everything , he used to be my best friend he was such a different person before his family died , he played football but he loved baseball I didn't think he'd ever give up on baseball he was great at it . After his parents died he changed , I mean like a big changed he barley said two words for the whole year , then last year he tried to be happy tried to start dating and playing baseball agian but he broke agian he faded away agian but this time he never came back . Clara but the way I saw him look at you it was like you gave him hope you gave me hope that you might be able to bring him back ."

"Jake I don't think I'm the right person , I have a very dark past and problems that even the best therapist in the world couldn't fix . I don't want to fall in love and him find out I'm not what he thinks and him to leave because in the end everyone leaves ."
Jake didn't talk for awhile , the silence was growing stronger , someone had to say something .

"Clara , I don't know your past but whatever it is its your past and no one can not want someone because of their past ."

"Jake , your not getting it because of my past I am changed forever , no one can fix me I'm being haunted by my past ."

"Well this is you so I'll see you hopefully at the game ."

"Yeah see ya later ."