The Girl He Didn't See

Chapter 9: Im Addicted to You

> Sorry for the late update. I've been having writers block. Anyways, enjoy.
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Words are tsunamis
But people are splashing around in them
Like they're puddles
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River
Oh shit. I thought back to that night thinking of what I said. I sat thinking and thinking trying to pull back what I had said. I remember saying how I felt. I remember talking about how I want to win her back. And all of a sudden I remember exactly what I had said.

"Zarah, I know he hurt you. But I would never do that to you. And I know you still see me as the child I was in middle school. But I promise I changed. Somehow I thought I'd actually have a chance with you. But I know you don't see me that way. At least not now. And I understand that because your hurting. All I want is to protect you. And you may not like me now but I'm gonna work hard to gain your trust back. I'm gonna gain your love back Zarah. Because I love you."

"You what?" I asked and I sat up so that I could hear clearly.

"I heard what you said to me the night Spencer and I broke up. You said you love me." She said and I swear she was asleep when I said that. Why didn't she ask me about it earlier?

I didn't respond and she noticed my uncomfortableness and placed her hand on my shoulder. "It's okay, you don't have to talk about it I just didn't know if you knew or not."

"Look, I do like you. A lot. And I want to be with you, but I know you're not ready. And I'll be here when you need me to. But don't think for a second I won't stop trying to be with you. I know it sounds weird but I'm addicted to you. I'm addicted to your smile. I'm addicted to your laugh. I'm addicted to you. And this addiction isn't going away."I pulled her closer to me and she smiled, her cheeks a light pink color. I kissed her forehead and we went back to laying together on her couch.

In that moment, it felt amazing, because I had absolutely no secrets. She finally knew how I felt.

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Zarah
Honestly I didn't know what to feel. I can see that he has changed but I still have my doubts. I feel like if I gave him a chance, I might actually like him. It's hard for me to let myself go. It's hard to let someone in, because I've done that before and it's only led to me getting hurt.

"River." I called his name, hoping he was asleep and I didn't have to tell him how I felt.

"Yes angel cake?" Shit, now I have to tell him.

"Umm.." My voice spoke softer "one chance. Okay? No guarantees. But I'm not going to promise anything."

"Really? Zarah, I don't want to force you to do anything. " he looked at me with intent in his eyes.

"Yeah, it couldn't hurt." Actually it might. It might actually hurt like hell. It could rip me to shreds or break me into a million pieces, but yet I'm still trying.

After that, no words were spoken. They weren't needed anyways, we just laid there in each other's arms until dinner. Our date was tomorrow, I had no idea what he was planning but I guess I'm ready for it.
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"What kind of date is this? " I asked River, who was just staring at me with a smirk on his face.

"Angel cake, why does it matter?" He asked me. Of course it mattered . He was still just looking at me.

"Am I supposed to dress comfortable, formal, casual, what? That's what I meant by what kind of date," I told him. He motioned for me to come sit on his lap. I rolled my eyes and did what I was supposed to.

He held my hand to his mouth for a second before putting them back in my lap. "Angel cake, it doesn't matter what you wear, your beautiful in everything. You could come in some sweats and a big t shirt and I'd still love you. " i began to blush and he kissed my cheek. I was probably as red as a tomato but it didn't matter.

"Would you just tell me Madden?" I laughed and he smirked. "Casual." I tried to get up but he didn't let me. "No, stay. I want to hold you a little longer." I nodded and placed my head on his shoulder. We always seemed to end up laying together.

"Why do you always have to hold me?" I asked him. His head shifted a little and he sighed. "Angel cake, if I didn't hold you, I'd be a mess. I love the feeling of being able to protect you, and to keep you warm, and to make you smile." The blood rushed to my cheeks and he smiled at me.

"You are so obsessed." I laughed which made him smirk at me. "You are my addiction Angel cake."

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We were in the dance studio and I was stretching before River ran up behind me to spin me around. "River put me down!" I giggled. He did as told and asked if I was ready.

"We're putting some passion into this dance. When you sway your hips, do it with fierce-" I cut him off by kissing his cheek, this time it was him blushing.

"Thanks for the tip, but I got this." I said and he raised his hands telling me gets it.

He got to the middle of the floor and I went to the bars on the edges of the room. The music played, and I danced with so much energy. It felt great, and I watched myself twist and turn in the mirror. I have to admit, I looked good.

River came behind me and I lifted my arms into the air, and his hands slid up the sides of my body giving me the chills. This routine felt better than the first, but I think we could have a better one.

We kept dancing for the next hour. Then we stopped for the day, and left the studio. "You did amazing Angel cake." I sipped my water and then said thank you.

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River
It was time for my date with Zarah, and I couldn't be anymore happy. She was finally giving me a chance, and I better not forget it. I was getting ready so I slipped on black jeans, a white t-shirt, and my purple and teal Jordan's. It was good enough for a casual date.

I took one last look in the mirror before walking over to Zarah's bedroom. She was standing in her bathroom applying her perfume. She was wearing dark blue jeans, a pink tank, and a black scarf around her neck. Her hair was tied up into a messy bun. It didn't matter what she was wearing she always looked great.

"Hey there angel cake." I winked at her and she playfully rolled her eyes.

"I think I'm ready Madden." She started to call me Madden more. I don't even know why, but it was cute when she did.

I led her to my car and began to drive. She was so curious, as to where we were going. She kept on asking so many questions and all I said was you'll see. This date has to be perfect. She said it herself, I only get one chance,and if I screw this up,I may never be able to call her mine.