The Girl He Didn't See

Chapter 11: Let me LOVE you

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Everyone is at war with different things.
I'm at war with my heart.
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Zarah
It hurt me so much to know that he would do that to me. I didn't even know why it hurt so much. I'm just angry that he would do this to me not once but twice, and why, for some skanky hoe .

I'm not going to cry over him again. I refuse to be in pain because of him. I just want to know why

. Why? A question that haunts everyone's brain.

I was walking to my car, painful thoughts crossing my mind. I ran my fingers through my hair and I felt a strange presence behind me. I turned to look and saw a man.

I felt uncomfortable so I kept walking faster. The man came closer so I tried to walk across the street to the other side.

He grabbed my arm and forced himself onto me. I struggled beneath screaming "GET OFF OF ME!!!" "SOMEONE HELP ME!!!".

I pushed him trying to get him off of me, but he didn't budge. His lips fell onto my neck. Oh god someone please help. "HELP!!!!" I screamed as loud as I could.

The man wreaked of alcohol. His hand began to slide up my shirt and I pushed his hand away and he looked at me.

He rose his hand and slapped me across the face. It burned .

"Stop fighting me or you will regret it. " he whispered and I kept trying to squirm out. I felt him trying to unbutton my pant.

"Oh god please don't . " I pleaded. He shook his head at me and kept going.

I shut my eyes knowing there was no way I was going to get out of it. He was stronger than me, especially at this time.

It was getting harder to breathe and I opened my eyes. His hands were on my throat. My heart was pounding with fear. It was such a heavy feeling placed on me.

That heavy feeling subsided and I could breathe. *punch* I opened my eyes. River was beating him. The man struggled beneath him trying to get up.

His face was bloody. Blood was coming out of his nose. He stopped struggling. Did he kill him? Was he dead? Oh god.

"Are you okay?" River got up and ran towards me . I began to cry. That was terrifying. I grabbed his shirt and cried on his shoulder.

He held me closer. My heart was slowing back down. I began to lose balance. He lifted me into his arms and walked to my car.

He placed me into the passenger side and walked around to the driver side and sat down. He sighed.

"I'm sorry." I turned my head from looking at the window to him. He must've known I knew what he was talking about because he kept going .

"When up you left to the bathroom, Nadine told me that you were just going to hurt me . And that she wanted me back. I told her it was never going to happen between us. She said we'll see about that and she kissed me. That's when you walked out and-"

I grabbed his hand and he stopped talking. "It's okay. Can you just take me home? Please."

I tried to fall asleep on the ride home . It was too much for me to handle . I wish it never happened .

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River carried me inside . He took me upstairs and sat me up on the bed . He began to untie the laces of my shoe before pulling them off and placing them to the side . He began to undress me which caused me to freak out.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" I yelled stopping him .

"Angel Cake, you have to shower. Trust me you'll feel better . And don't worry , I'm not going to do anything to you . Pinky" he stuck his pinky out and I did wrapping mine around his .

He pulled off my scarf putting it on the chair in the corner . Then the shirt, making me cover my stomach, then the pants . "Turn around so I can unhook your bra." I did as I was told .

The bra fell off of me and I stopped covering my stomach to cover my breasts. He turned me back around and scanned over my body. He noticed the scars over my stomach .

"Hey, what are those from?" He asked running his finger over them .

I gulped "well... After we stopped being friends, I became really conscious of my body. I was angry at myself for not being as skinny as the other girls .... So I cut. But not on my arms .... Because my mom would notice ." I admitted feeling shame crossing over me .

"When did you stop?" He asked .

"About a year and a half ago, when I started high school." I said thankfully .

"Are you okay?" He asked . " yeah I'm fine ." I said and he nodded .

"Come on." He lifted me and brought me to the bathroom. He tied my hair up in a bun and ran the water .

"Okay. Do you want to get in now?" He asked me . I nodded "umm... River, I can shower by myself ."

"Oh right sorry. I'll check on you later to see if you're okay. I'll make dinner in the meantime." I nodded and he walked out. I took off my panties and slipped into the bathtub.

It was warm and comforting. I couldn't think about anything but how glad I was for river saving me .

River came back about fifteen minutes later . "Come on, let's get you into comfortable clothes" he said and I nodded standing up to grab my towel but he stopped me . "I got it ."
"I can do it River" I said softly.

"Please let me help you." I didn't say anything so he grabbed my towel and wrapped it around me after drying my legs . He walked behind me to the room and pulled out sweats and a tank for me to wear.

He put them on for me and carried me to the kitchen to have dinner . He made lasagna and placed it in front of me . "Thank you. For everything tonight." I said quietly.

"Don't thank me . I was happy to help you. Especially after what happened ." He said .

"Please don't treat me like I'm a little girl . Or pity me. " I said softly, stabbing my fork into the lasagna .

"I'm not pitying you Angel Cake. I love you, you already know that. And I just want to help you." He said sitting next to me .

"You barely even know me anymore."

"Zarah, stop pushing me away. I know you enough to know that you push people away when you start to get close to them because your preparing yourself for being hurt . Only I wouldn't hurt you intentionally . It's so hard to watch you hurt . It hurts to watch you hurt"

"River-" he stopped me " let me finish."

"Let me in Angel Cake. I know you don't want to let anyone in. But let me in. Let me be the one to finally break down your walls. Let me cook for you. Let me help you. Let me LOVE you" he said sighing after.

"Okay" I said finally. I placed my hand over his and kissed his cheek.

"Okay? " he asked seeing if I was telling the truth.

"Okay." I smiled . He got out of his chair and came up to me . He wrapped his arm around my waist and placed his lips on mine .