(Jasmines flash back dream POV) TW - SELF HARM/BAD LANGUAGE/ VIOLENCE "SHE DIDN'T DO A THING LEAVE HER ALONE" my mom screamed at the top of her lungs while my dad gripped my shirt by the collar while i was in the air. Before I could even blink I found my self being thrown on the cold floor, with tears being held back I ran upstairs Closed the door behind me while I heard the echos of my parents arguing. before I even thought about getting out my notebook to write my feelings away *SMASH* a vase was broke with the follow up of my dad screaming "SEE NOW WHO WAS FAULT WAS THAT?" My mom instantly yelled 'STAY AT YOUR MOMS GIVE ME AND YOUR DAUGHTER SOME PEACE FOR FUCK SAKE ' I heard the door slam "Great" (Back to reality ) My alarm woke me up 6:00am for school I sighed I rolled over and checked my messages 1 message "Ashley <3
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don't let your paste define you. Please. Your father has lost A brave person. I love you. From Miami bestie 😘😍
I guess so. I'm trying I need to get up tbh I love you too Bitch I'll talk after school From Florida flick chick 😌😘 Seen : 6:05 am
I sighed Mumbled to my self "shes the only person who gets it " It hit me "shit it's my first day here" I wasn't feeling it at all. I felt. 'Alone.. ' I got up and stumbled to the bathroom turning on the light looking at my reflection in the mirror My eyes trembled on the razor I didn't think about it and just did it hissed in pain while looking at the blood running out . I got a tissue and rubbing alcohol and put some on the cut to stop the bleeding and put A plaster over it. I got changed into some shorts and over sized baby blue hoodie I looked at my reflection once more " not like people give a shit anyway" I mumbled before shoving my hair into a messy bun "this will have to do for today I suppose " I said to my self My eyes went back on the bloody blade "it won't clean it self " I mumbled before shoving It under water washing away any access blood and cleaned up the area. I brushed my teeth till I felt like I need to stop. I washed my face and did my edges. *Ping * my phone goes off * Momma 💙
Have a good day at school Make some Friends today There's breakfast on the table I've left early For work I'll be back soon 💙
Okay ! I'll try to I promise. Thank you ! Have a good day too Seen 6:45 am
I ran down stairs to find my mom left me pancakes and syrup on the kitchen counter There was a note by the plate from mom "It breaks me not to drop you off on your first day like I've done for the last few years With your previous First days of your school years. I hope this makes it up to you. I've left you lunch money too I'll see you when I get back and you can tell me Me all about it. Don't be late. Enjoy these. - mom Ps - your still short. Short ass x "
I rolled my eyes and said to my self " lightened my mood" I smiled a bit After reading that. I sat down with my pancakes and scrolled through my feed on Instagram Stumbled across a post from Ashley
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Ashleyjones.priv: got dem extensions💅🏽 User432: 😍❤️❤️ User9975: hoops bigger than yo ears 💀 Jasmine.Ig : okayyyy I see youuu😍
I look at the time at the time at the top of my phone "7:15 am" I walked out of the kitchen grabbing my earphones and my bag from the hook by the front door. Plugged my earphones into my phone walking out the door pulling the keys out of my front pocket of my back Locking the door. Once I heard the door lock. I pulled the key out Attaching my keys to my shorts walking down the steps. I put my earphones In my ear while walking opening Spotify I put on my favourite song PRINCESS - BY LIL PEEP I continued to walk to song it was a 30 min walk but I took my time since school started at 8:15, just cause I didn't want to be there. I admit that It was the wrong attitude to have on the first day. But it was the fact of facing my fears with meeting people all over again. Not fun. But I'll come round when I'm ready I suppose.
7:55am "Well I'm here aren't I ?" I said in the most sarcastic tone. I headed in to the main office for my timetable with one of my headphone In. I approached the desk " hey erm I'm new here and I don't have a time table can you help me please?" I asked quietly but firmly "Name please ?" She asked with a sweet tone "Jasmine... jasmine Davis" i looked down saying looking down "Ah I know you, your starting new here aren't you ? " she asked with in a calm tone. "Yes.. I am " looking up and smiling at her. She handed me my time table I looked at it quickly before looking up at her "Thankyou " Before walking away. I heard."wait " I turned around and she gave me wise words "Before you start today just remember that if you put your Head into it your life will change" she said with a smile I nodded " will Thankyou" I smiled.
