you & me - Dreamwastaken x OC

Eighteen

"Fuck - ouch," For roughly the tenth time since we arrived, Clay is once again on his ass, and I am once again laughing at him. "Oh come on bear, not all of us can be skating prodigies," I keep laughing as I help him stand up, garnering a few strange looks from nearby parents.

"Clay you have got to stop swearing, there are little kids around! Also, I am not a roller skating prodigy, I just don't suck ass at it," I stick my tongue out at him and skate away as he pushes off from the wall he's using to balance.

"That's not fair! You can't ditch me while we're on a date!"

"And who said this was a date?"

"You literally did Oli! You called me up a week ago and said, and I quote 'don't plan anything for our three months, I want to take you on our date,'" A smug look takes over his features and I scrunch my face up at him.

"Okay... so maybe this is a date, but you still need to up your skating game," I give him a quick kiss on the nose before holding out my hand to him, "Come on, I'll help you." He pouts, "Don't give me that face, I promise I won't let you fall," I have to work to hide my laughter.

"I don't care about falling," I raise my eyebrows, "I just thought I'd be really good at this, I thought I'd get to help you,"

"Aww bub, you're too cute, and also way too fucking competitive. Now come on, I'm going to get you to do at least one full lap on your own by the end of this,"

"We only have one hour?"

"We better speed run this shit then,"

~~~

Apparently, Clay thought I meant speed running falling over because when the announcement came that everyone from our time slot had to exit the rink, Clay hadn't been upright for longer than 5 minutes at a time. I skate slowly backwards in front of Clay, while he pulls himself along the railings to the exit. "It's 'cause I'm too tall, my centre of gravity is fucking me over,"

"Bub, I'm literally three inches shorter than you and I'm fine,"

"Three inches is a lot bear," I give him a pointed look while he realises what he's just said. "Oh come on, get your mind out of the gutter," I laugh and spin on my skates, "Now help me out of these death traps,"

~~~

Walking along the streets towards the beach, sharing a box of cheese pizza we'd bought from the first place we saw, Clay and I are both completely happy. Well, I am, and I think Clay is too. His eyes are sparkling, reflecting the moonlight and the faint stars above us. His nose and cheeks are tinted a light pink from the evening breeze, present even though we're in the middle of summer now. His lips are stained red, whether that's the breeze or the pizza I'm not quite sure, but I am sure I'll probably find out.

"Are you going in?"

I focus back on my surroundings rather than just studying Clay, "What?"

"Are you going into the water with me?" When did we get to the beach, "Because you do know that I can carry you in if I have to,"

"No, Clay you can't, I'm not in bathers Cla-Y," I'm suddenly running for my life as my boyfriend tries to throw me over his shoulder and into the sea, "STOP NO!" Begging for mercy while laughing and running isn't as easy as the romance movies make it seem.

"But why come to the beach if you're not going to SWIM," And I hit the water. Laughing as I surface he pulls me up towards him and meets me in a searing kiss. I break away and run further into the ocean, my clothes are wet now so I may as well make the most of it.

Clay gets the idea and chases after me, pulling me towards himself and hoisting me up so that we're eye to eye. I wrap my legs around his waist and close the distance between us with another kiss. 

I think I love this boy

~~~

"Chat okay, I'll tell you a story about her, stop bugging me," Clay's laugh rings out through my room as I have his stream playing whilst editing. I instinctively tune in, now knowing that I'm the topic of conversation. "Okay, well it was our anniversary the other day - no not a year yet," yet, "and she took me roller skating because she always loved it growing up and hasn't gone in a while. But Chat, it turns out that she sucks ass at skating and I had to lead her around the whole time... yes Chat she was very cute." That lying mother fucker. Fuck it. I pull up the donation page and send one through.

dreamsgirlfriendxo donated!
Clay don't lie to chat... we both know the only one who fell over was you

Clay just laughs as chat spams that he got caught in 4K, "Bear I thought we agreed that you'd tell me whenever you were going to donate so that I knew it was you," 

Bear <3
It was me fake ass lying bitch

Clay bursts into another surge of laughter as he gets my message, "Okay yep, chat that was definitely her, she just texted me and called me a fake ass lying bitch," I laugh slightly, relieved that he knew I was making a joke, "But Bear, I know you said that you had work to do now, so stop watching my stream and get your work done." He's right, I did tell him that I had editing to do, but to be honest I didn't expect him to remember.

That's the thing about Clay, he remembers every small detail about me, about all of his closest friends really. He's always so sweet about it too, and never expects anything in return for all that he does for me. 

"Yes Chat, she is very poggers," I smile at that. 

I really love this boy.

Holy shit

I love him.

No.

No, no, no, no, no, no. 

That can't happen. Not now. Not this early.

Whenever I fall in love too fast nothing ever works out. 

It happened with Elise, it happened with my boyfriend before her. It can't happen with Clay. 

Because whenever I fall in love I screw things up. I get too caught up in trying to keep them that I ruin everything and they either get sick of me because I'm too clingy, or we end up acting more like friends because it's impossible to keep a romance going when you're always together. Distance makes the heart grow fonder or something. 

I can't be in love with Clay yet. I won't allow it.

Everyone I love I lose. And they leave me and they break me. I won't let myself be broken again.

Bear <3
I'm really sorry Clay, but I can't do this anymore

A/N
because not everything is rainbows and butterflies

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