Arwa

15- My Animosity

Hallow had sat us down with tea, it was nice, nicer than the thing Chimaera would make but I wasn't too bothered, Chimaera only did have a limited amount of resources. It was really nice though, nicer than anything I made at The Core.

Hallow took a slow sip,
"That question, Chimaera, that one you asked before, about the others..." she looked off and away from our eyes, taking in a deep breath of air. She looked back at us,"I thought I was the last one. I believed I was the last Mynx Guardian. There is nobody else." I turned to Chimaera, I put a hand on his. He didn't look at me, he just stared at the all in front of him.

Hallow continued,"But then of course you appeared. I was the main hub of knowledge for the Mynx, a recipient for information if you will. I had been informed that I would be the last Mynx Guardian, that all had been hunted down and killed and the Necropolis we once dwelled was now merely an empty cavern." She tried to give a smile,"Well, until I met you at least."

I took a small sip of the warm tea. I waited for Chimaera's reaction. There was none. The silence around if was deafening and my Voices began to fill it. They called out chattering, rattling around as I tried not to get anxious.

He's alone, weak. Weak Mynx child. Alone Mynx both alone. Weak- weak aliens. Aliens deadly, deadly weak aliens. Deadly alone aliens. Old Mynx, last Mynx. Alone Mynx broken-broken. Broken alone weak. Deadly- dead Mynx, weak dead. Alone, weak- weak Mynx, young dead, dead, dead, dead, dead.

"Arwa?" Hallow looked at me. Chimaera did too, he muttered out softly,
"Arwa your mask, I can see half your... I can see half your... face," I stopped, I put my hand to wear my mask would of been, where it should have been. I just touched... skin. It was cold. I touched my... my mouth... my cheeks... I- I...

I looked in front of me, in front of me was a mirror is that was I looked like is that...?

I don't look right. This isn't right. This is terrible, I need to change this, I shouldn't be like this this is wrong. I wanted to break that mirror, I had to break that mirror I had to get rid of that, I had to get rid of that... face I- this isn't right. This is terrible.

I am wrong.

I pulled my mask right back onto my head. Chimaera came closer,"Arwa... you're shaking, you ok?" I didn't want to talk to him, I didn't want to talk to anybody. I wanted to be alone, I wanted to be by myself like just like how it was before. I want this to go away, I don't want to be like this. I wanted to cry, I have this forever, I have this thing... I wanted it to go away.

Chimaera tried to touch me, I think I got up. I wanted to go back to the Core, I needed to go back to the Core right now I didn't want any of this. I looked at my hand. Why do I look like this? Why is my body like this?
"Don't touch me." Hallow got up,
"Arwa, are you sure you are ok? ...What it sounds like is that you might just need some rest: your journey was long, child, I think you need sleep. Cold and shock can be an awful combination in this weather... come it is late, child, you both need sleep..." I grabbed my head, I felt my mask.
"I DON'T NEED SLEEP HALLOW, DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO I NEED TO GO BACK!" Chimaera, he tried to calm me down. My voice hurt, it was burning, burning up.
"Go back where, Arwa?! H- hey, calm down deep breaths it's ok, I'm here for you, deep breaths-"

I couldn't focus I couldn't see I couldn't do anything, I was getting hotter. I felt myself hit the floor, Chimaera was around me I didn't want him to be around me I didn't want him there,"GET AWAY FROM ME HALLOW- I-I MEAN- CHIMAERA I-, I NEED TO GO BACK TO THE CORE I NEED TO GET AWAY FROM THIS. GET AWAY, GET AWAY FROM ME DON'T LOOK AT ME, DON'T LOOK AT MY- AT MY-"

I think I was crying. My head was on the floor. My knees were up to the chest I was in a ball. I heard Chimaera call my name, I felt his hands in my hair and on my shoulder, he was hugging me he- Hallow behind me trying to get me up. I had my head in my hands. Tears were everywhere it was filling up my mask, hot, boiling tears, I can't do this anymore. Please make everything stop. Please make everything end. Please make this go away.

Please get rid of me.