That Awkward Moment

Chapter One

I staggered out of bed, ready and excited for the new school year, this year would fly by and I'll finally go to university. I had already sent my registration forms to the University of Toronto, in the fields of biology and chemistry. I didn't really know what career path to go into, only that it would evolve around fields of biology, I loved the subject and was pretty good at it. Last week I had received my early acceptance, my only goal this year was to keep up with the good marks and soon I'll receiving my scholarship; ready to go to U of T.

I stormed out of the house, dressed casually in my black jeans and a loose shirt with a sassy remark on it. "Nobodies, nice", said my best friend Ray, she was an amazing girl with chocolate-colored hair and eyes. She had joined my gang of friends last year, apparently, her twin brother was returning from England this year, to live in Canada and spent the last year of high school here, that would explain the glowing smile plastered on her face.

"Thank you", I replied, "just wanted to put it out there," I said, jeez I hated girls who thought a stupid boy defined who they are or should be. I mean come on girls, we rule the world, Beyoncé even sang a song about it. I mean we deserve much better than wasting our precious time and energy on a stupid guy who would ultimately ruin our life and send our emotions scattered all over the place.

"Yeah yeah we get it, boys are bad, don't get involved and don't let them rule your world", replied Ray rolling her eyes, "jeez this is the last year of high school. Oh, come on I am one hundred percent sure you have a crush, you have to, it's impossible that you've been resisting boys your whole life. Focusing on education my ass, now that you've kind of reached all your goals, please have some fun." Ray said, her eyes hopeful, walking beside me towards school.

I thought about it, "I promise I'll do that in university. For now, life's short and I don't want to be tied down by a dude in a crappy relationship for a year. Plus, I don't believe in love or crush or whatever you people fuss about. Now if you don't mind we're reaching school, please don't bring up the topic in front of others, I do not want another hot debate on either I should date or not, we both know how that went down last time" I replied, eyeing Ray, threatening her with my narrowed eyes.

Boy did I not want my friends on my ass about how cute that boy was, or oh my God how hot he is, it was pathetic and it reduced women's power and integrity, boys should chase after girls, bottom line. Plus I never actually found a boy interesting enough to grab my attention, I mean sure people say personality is everything and all, but in high school, the ugly truth was that no one gave a second thought at knowing you better.

Everyone judged others based on their clothing, hairstyle, and looks. It was wrong, trust me I know, you know, they know, but we really can't stop it. We're at an age where we can't really choose right from wrong. Although for my age, I was the parent in our group. My mom Suzana, who is nicknamed Suzy told me everything about boys when I was in grade 6. She had a lot of experience with them and the fact was, boys were ruined for me from that time and after, every time I look at them my mom's words repeat in my mind like a warning and being the goody-two-shoes I am, I listen to them every time, and I'm happy I did, so far I have been rewarded with exclusive results.

Although throughout my years of observing the dangerous and complicated organisms we call to make, I had been able to create a philosophy, or rather a role book of mine that I follow by heart. If I had my own country, I would have that as our commandments or something.

1. Boys should always, always chase after girls, not the other way around no matter what.

2. Don't look or even speak to them, (do it only if necessary).

3. Answer go screw yourself to everything they ask you because usually, they're just trying to play with you for their own or their friends' amusement. (Trust me, it had happened to me, and yes I did hand the guys ass back to him, he never talked to me again, ha!)

4. Make them beg for it, never give in too easily, I mean that would just bust their already high ego, plus they wouldn't appreciate you as much as you deserve to be appreciated.

5. Never show that you like them, NEVER, because first, they should always come to you, and second, in every movie or book, the girl always hates the guy and gets the hot boy, so that's gotta be a sign or something. Hmmm, I wonder if that would happen to me, I guess you have to read further to find out.

6. Never say you love them first. Cause they might freak out (don't know why?), or might not say it back which could hurt you, plus going back to rule number one, boys should always chase after girls, so why should you say it, when they can.

7. Never sleep with them on the first date, or kiss them in this case. Cause that would show that you're too easy (which you're not). Plus high school relationships never last, you shouldn't ruin yourself for someone that could be only playing you, which all boys in high school do.

8. Always look good girl, cause you deserve it, don't dress up for them only, always look good, so when you do dress up sometimes, they wouldn't think it's for them, (not too revealing, that's just me).

9. Never text, call or etc them first.

10. Don't ask them where they were, or who they were with constantly, cause that would make you seem like a stalker, shows that you care way too much. Also, it would kind of annoy them and remind them of their parents, you don't want that, trust me.

11. Never do too much for them, I mean you're not their maid. Plus it would make them expect too much, don't do it and they would do it themselves, simple. Or might even do stuff for you without you asking.

12. Show your natural and true beauty, I mean I know you're like blaa. I've heard this enough times. But that's cause it's true, he should like you for who you are, I mean boys expect us to be pretty and bla bla bla, while we want them to be hot, tall, with abs, and with Damon from Vampire Diaries face, if they don't have that, then they have no right to ask us to be something that we're not. We all have some faults, when we accept theirs, they should learn to accept ours. Bottom line, be bold, hold your head up high, cause you need no makeup.

Boom, there you go, only twelve steps to be a very hot, hard to get girl, that every guy drools over. I promise, following these roles have brought nothing, but happiness, a clear mind, and confidence to me.

I snapped out of my thoughts when I noticed Matt smiling up at us, as we walked towards my locker which was located close to Lilly's. Matt was standing a bit too close to Lilly by her locker taking out some books, whispering something into her ear, I watched her blush. Gosh, get a room. I sighted at them both, Lilly and I had met Matt in grade 9, he had been short with a childish face then, but over the past few years he had grown, a lot.

He was now a muscular looking boy, tall and handsome, and of course, he had a crush on Lilly. The girl was a flirt, with looks that could kill, with her beautiful blond hair, and light golden eyes, and long eyelashes that flattered and grabbed every male's attention. She was a hopeless romantic, so innocent and kind, too kind if you ask me. She wouldn't stand up for herself, too fragile both physically and emotionally, with her small bone structure and tiny slim figure, every girls' dream body, including my own.

Lilly didn't like Matt before, but I knew her better, she had started to form feelings, not playfully pushing him away anymore, rather enjoying his closeness. The thing that drove me mad was Lilly's denial of feelings towards Matt, I mean girl at least admit you have a problem of being too gorgeous, and having a crush on your friend, he sure didn't deny it.

I eyed them up and down, I really didn't appreciate Matt's closeness and illustrations of affection, last time I let a boy get too close to Lilly, hell had broke loose, with me literally chasing away the drug-addicted lover of Lilly. Of course, I always had to be the tough one, the one who always stood there watching every boy move in the room, daring them to get close to me or my friends, boys were evil, only wanting to take advantage of girls. Honestly, I was awarded their lack of interest and attention towards me, of course, all eyes were on Lilly, but I didn't mind. As long as it was a harmless flirt, right?

Suddenly I was pulled out of my thoughts by Ray pulling on my arm, dragging me to our first class together, biology. The last thing I saw was Matt hugging Lilly, looking tormented. Oh for the love of God, they had lunch together in about 3 hours, they can probably stand being away from one another that long.

I watched as the two lovers walked in the opposite direction, separating to go to class. I let myself be dragged by Ray's firm hand guiding me towards biology class, not wanting to look back at the sickening scene that the lovers pulled off.