"I kissed the scars" - JakeHoon

no.21

"Do you wanna talk?" Jake asked .

Sunghoon thought, yeah he wants to talk and to take all his problems out from his heart and be free, he always wanted to find someone who will listen to him as he talks about his problems.
Sunghoon nods without talking and jake smiles,  sunghoon loved the vibe that this room had,  it makes him calm .

"can you exactly tell me.....do you have your own house ?" Jake asked him and sunghoon looks at him , theres nothing to hide , that's how his life is . "oh......no....since one week ago " sunghoon answered to Jake's question, jake raised his eyebrows "why didn't you told me " jake said , getting mad now , if he only knew about that ,he wouldn't have let sunghoon alone all this time .

"I dont know.....I just thought that you will not be the same ......I'm happy the way you are now with me " sunghoon spoke , his lips getting dry and he licks them , looking at Jake's eyes . The purple color made his face more pretty.
"Why do you want to die ?" Jake again asked , it's okay sunghoon thought, he wanted to tell jake everything.

"Why should I be alive?....I have no one ..." sunghoon said and sighs.  Jake looks at him "what about me.....am I nothing to you?" Jake asked . Sunghoon didn't meant to sound rude with that answer. "Yeah.....yeah you are someone to me " sunghoon said . Ofcourse jake is someone to sunghoon, Jake is sunghoons life .

"Since I was little.....my dad left me and my mom so me and my mom were alone....with no money " sunghoon said ,he didn't want to bring back memories but he wanted to tell everything to Jake,  jake listens to him by nodding his head , feeling bad for sunghoon, he had to live this life .

"What about now.......where did you lived ?" Jake asked him .

"Street " sunghoon answered it quietly.

Jake placed his hand under his face , looking at sunghoon , taking a deep breath, he wished sunghoon told him everything since the start and he wouldn't have lived on the street .
"Street?...you have no idea how mad I am right now.....you dont deserve this " jake said , getting mad at sunghoons parents and at sunghoon for not telling him the truth. "I do deserve it " sunghoon said slowly like a whisper but jake heard him .

"You dont .....why are you sleeping on the street ....what about your home?" Jake asked , he wanted to know everything about his best friend.
"My mom........she kicked me out " sunghoon said . Jake was shocked, why would a parent do this to their child . Wont they feel bad about it,  knowing that their child isn't safe outside and something bad might happen to them .

"I'm sorry for asking but....why did she do that?" Jake again asked , getting worried for sunghoon. Sunghoon sighs, should he tell him why ,....what if Jake will be uncomfortable with sunghoon if he tells him the truth . "Because.......I'm........gay " sunghoon spoke , in every word he would take a pause , he just told jake like that , he hopes that jake will be okay with him liking boys . When sunghoon said the word 'gay' he now looked up on the ceiling, he didn't want to face jake .

Jake thought " there's  nothing wrong with being gay " jake said and held himself on his elbows, looking down at sunghoon . "Dont worry about it.....you dont deserve nothing that is happening to you.....your life matters " jake said to him with a serious tone.

Sunghoon felt like crying, holding his tears back . "What did I deserve to have you ?" Sunghoon asked , jake is so nice, so so nice that everyone wished to have a person like jake in their lifes only for once. "Nothing........I just love you " jake said and sunghoon looked at jake . Yeah love as in friends way ....he wished that jake loved him like sunghoon does , but what sunghoon doesn't know is that jake is starting to have some weird feelings about sunghoon."I love you too" sunghoon said and his left eye starts to drop a tear , the tear going down his cheek and to his ear , making his ear wet and his hairs , a little bit .
Since it was dark in the room jake didn't saw the tear and that sunghoon is crying .

"Sunghoon.......dont listen to people.....love who you love . Love isn't a choice...you fall in love unexpectedly with someone " Jake said to sunghoon , sunghoon taking all the words that jake said to his heart , he wanted to remember them , true , you will fall in love with someone that you not expect.
"Even if you love boys......I dont care....i will support you until my last breath " jake said .

"Dont say that " sunghoon said "say what?" Jake replied.  "That you'll support me until your last breath......I dont want to lose you .....I want to be with you forever " sunghoon said,  his heart deep down hurts a lot ....he have a pang there and he is trying his best to act that he is good in front of jake .

"Dummy......until my last breath can be when I'll be one hundred years old hehe" jake said and laughs at the end of the sentence making sunghoon to laugh too . They don't know why they were laughing but sunghoon have missed this , laughing with someone, just feeling their presence , wanting to be with them .

While laughing,  sunghoon had laughed a lot and made his stomach to shake and his cut started to hurt a little,  sunghoon let a little wince and touched his stomach...jake stands and sat down, looking at sunghoons stomach "is the cut healed ?" Jake asked . Sunghoon shakes his head , he didn't know that.

"Can I...check it " jake asked and sunghoon nods . Jake went more down to sunghoons legs , jakes face was near his stomach and he slowly lifted his shirt up, revealing a little of his skin , seeing the cut there . "I think its healed " Jake said and looks at it .

Sunghoon was holding himself with his elbows from behind looking at jake and jake held himself with his elbows,  laying down on his stomach, next to sunghoons legs and half of his body was on top of sunghoon , not realizing that and he looked up at sunghoon while holding his shirt .

"Can I kiss your scar?"

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Thank you.