Heart of a Gun (Book one)

Was That Loud Enough?

They leave once she's in the passenger seat and head to the house in complete silence. Once they are back he gets everyone in one place to tell them what's going to happen in a couple of days.

"So in a couple of days I'll be taking Natalie with me on a business deal out in Italy, Jacob you'll stay here and look after things, I'll have Jagger help you out here and Enzo, you'll come with me."

"No, Natalie is not going with you to Italy."

"This is non negotiable. What I say now will not be changed, maybe this could be a learning curve for her to realize how dangerous this actually is and it will get through her thick skull."

"HEY! I'm stubborn but I ain't that stubborn. I know exactly how dangerous it is so don't you DARE patronize me. Also Jj, I am capable of handling myself thank you."

Natalie and Jj keep on arguing about this trip. A couple times Natalie would glance at him and notice that he was getting sick and tired of the arguing.

"SHUT UP!" He yells.

They all look at him in complete shock, Enzo and jagger's jaws drop open because he never loses his composure like that but this time he did.

"Sor-"

Natalie doesn't even get one word out of her mouth before he puts his hand up causing Natalie to stop talking, he walks away going to his room slamming the door behind him. They all stand there dumbfounded wondering what the hell was wrong with him that night. Natalie shakes her head getting rid of the face she was making.

Later that night Natalie decided to go to his room to check on him to see what's going on with him, he seemed like he had something on his mind. She knocks on the door, he opens it to see her standing there.

"What do you want?" He says with an annoyed tone and expression.

"I just wanted to know if you were okay but I see that you are in a bad mood so I'll leave you alone."

I start to walk away when I hear him say 'wait' so I turn my head back and say...

"Hmm?"

"Wait."

"Why should I?"

"I want to apologize."

"Really you want to apologize to me when all I've been doing is making it hard for you to do what you do to make a living?"

"Yes, is that so hard to believe?"

"Uh yes."

"Well believe it or not, I'm sorry."

"Wow I'm surprised you know that word." She says with a small smile, which makes him chuckle with a smile.

"What?"

"Nothing."

"So why did you get so angry earlier?"

His smile faltered when she mentioned it. He looked her dead in the eyes and then shut the door in her face, causing Natalie to start knocking on the door repeatedly waiting for him to open it again. After a half hour he finally opened it back up.

"GO AWAY!"

"NO NOT UNTIL YOU TELL ME WHAT'S GOT YOU SO ANGERED!"

"NOTHING!"

"REALLY? WELL I DON'T THINK SO!"

"GET LOST I'M NOT IN THE MOOD NATALIE!"

"GET OVER YOURSELF AND YOUR BIG EGO AND TALK TO ME DANMIT!"

"BACK OFF!"

"NO!"

"THIS IS EXACTLY WHY I'M ANGRY, YOU'RE NOT LEAVING ME ALONE!"

"YOUR THE ONE WHO WANTED TO APOLOGIZE AND NOW YOUR ANGRY AT ME FOR TRYING TO BE NICE AND SEE IF I COULD HELP BUT WHATEVER. THE NEXT TIME YOU SNAP AT ME FOR CARING FOR SOMEONE LIKE YOU I WON'T BE THERE TO HELP!"

"DON'T WORRY I DON'T NEED OR WANT YOUR HELP!"

"FINE!"

"FINE!"

And with that he once again slammed the door in her face. She was almost in tears when he shut the door because he was being a total ass. She then proceeded to head to her room about to fall apart after what had just happened. She thought she was doing something that wouldn't get her in trouble but of course her simple little act got her in trouble and she didn't understand why.

What is going on with him? He never yelled like that to anyone but tonight he did and I got the brunt of it because I tried to help get whatever it was that was on his mind. Was it because me and Jj were fighting about the trip or was it something else. I decide I can't sleep so I go downstairs to grab a glass of water, not knowing what or who I was walking into.

"Natalie."

It was none other than the bastard himself who I just had gotten into a screaming match with.

"Don't."

That's all I had to say to him. I couldn't believe that after all that he want's to talk now. The nerve he has thinking I'm going to talk to him of all the people in this house he was the one I had to keep running into night and day. He brings out the worst in people when he's angry, I'm angrier.

"I'm-"

"I said don't."

"Come on, I'm-"

"WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT YOU CAN YELL AT ME AND NOT GET PUNISHED FOR IT? AND YOU THINK I'M JUST GOING TO LET YOU GET BACK ON MY GOOD GRACES BY JUST SAYING SORRY I DON'T THINK SO!"

"Ok."

That's all he says before leaving the kitchen. God damn it, why does he make me so angry like that? What about him gets me so riled up? Is this something I want to be doing the rest of my life yelling and arguing about the smallest things? What's wrong with me? Who am I anymore? Am I better off here or am I going to be better off dead? Who knows maybe tomorrow will be better.