SKINNY | ATEEZ WOOYOUNG

thirteen

a loud noise was all wooyoung could hear. a vibrating, static sound that often rang through his head when he was left alone with his own thoughts.

is this what the afterlife feels like? he wondered to himself. body numb, he felt as though he was floating - stuck in time.

you're worthless wooyoung. you couldn't do the one thing i asked. you couldn't take your own life. i even made sure it was the easiest way possible.

pathetic.

small gasps left his cracked lips as wooyoung sat up abruptly, hands shaking as he ran them down his tear-stained cheeks.

"i'm sorry... i'm sorry... i'm sorry..." he repeated over and over. not sure what he was apologising for, but knowing he had to. because he had let them down.

he let his members down. he was weak enough to try and kill himself but still failed.

he really was a failure.

time slowly went by. it felt like he was frozen in place. unable to move. still left in a state of shock.

soon, the bang of a door hitting a wall resonated throughout the room wooyoung was resided in. he turned his head slowly, his neck muscles feeling tense as he did so.

when he saw who was standing there, eyes blown red and wide, wooyoung went into shock. his eyes began to water and he let out a pained gasp that sounded more like a cry than anything.

"s-sannie, i'm-"

a sob wracked the private hospital room, and trembling arms enclosed themselves around wooyoung's frail frame with care.

"oh my god youngie, you're okay. thank god, you're okay!" san exclaimed in relief, glad to see his best friend was alive.

after hearing san's words, the rest of the members came flooding in the room.

wooyoung merely looked down, casting his eyes to his discoloured hands and prominent blue veins running across his forearms. he was deathly thin, and had a bunch of tubes sticking out of him from every angle.

he felt ashamed, and no amount of comments from his members or fans could soothe the gaping in his heart.

jung wooyoung was broken, and it was going to take a lot to fix him.

a/n:
heyyy i'm alive (?) barely. the reason i updated this was bc i saw someone comment on it today asking for an update and i had this in my drafts and though eh why not - fuck it ! this'll probably be v short and br resolved relatively quickly bc i have a good, lighthearted, smutty taekook book coming out after this one :) so i hope u guys enjoy this and then show that one some love even tho u guys are mostly atinys !

psa. ATEEZ COMEBACK SEPTEMBER 13TH 6PM KST GET READY !!!