Haikyuu Oneshots (Mpreg)

TsukkiYama - loss

TuskkiYama

-Flashback-

"Hey, Tadashi, you okay?" Kei asked. "Yeah, I'm fine kei...just cramps. I'm going to go to the restroom." I quietly walked over to the restroom. In the back of my head I knew what was going on, though I didn't want to. I pulled down my pants, and as I expected, blood. Blood and lots of it. "Hey...tuskki?" Damn it, I was too quiet. "Kei...kei...KEI!" I yelled into the hallway, half screaming half sobbing. "HELP. . . PLEASE!" I heard tuskkishima running into the bathroom. "Tadashi? What's wrong?" I showed him my blood cover hand. His face went pale and his eyes dropped to the floor, but he remained calm. He grabbed a towel and a wet wash cloth and started to help clean me off. "Hey, hey, I've got you, it's okay." He picked the sobbing mess I call myself off of the floor. He began kissing my tear stained cheeks. "I'm sorry...I'm so so sorry kei, I'm a fucking failure. I couldn't even keep a child for more than two months. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorr..." I said between sobs." "Shut up, Yamaguchi. This isn't your fault, I don't want those words to ever come out of your mouth again, you hear me?" All I could do was nod. His voice was cold and stern, I looked up to see he was choking back tears of his own. I had never seen tuskki like this, honestly it was scary. "This will never be your fault. So, don't going saying shit like that. Not once in my entire life have I thought of you as a failure and I never fucking will. We can try again, when or if you want to. I know I said I didn't want kids in the first place, but these last two months have been the light of my life, even though the kid hadn't been born. Tadashi I may say things that I don't mean at all, but truly I do want a family. I want little me's and little you'd running around the house. To wake up hear the sound little feet pattering down the stairs. We can keep trying, one way or another we will have a family."

"I love you Tadashi, no matter what. Don't you ever forget that." kei had started to cry. Tears, now streaming down both our faces. I grabbed his head and placed a soft kiss on his cheek. "I love you too kei"

-flashback ended-

Three days later

"Tadashi, wake up, you gotta eat and shower."

"Ngh..." I pulled the covers above my head as kei opened the curtains. He then lifted off the covers from my face and gave me the plate of food.

"Tadashi, eat" he said sternly. "Do you want me to feed you?" I blushed at the question. I did, honestly, it would be nice. Before I could answer he sat down next to me and put a spoonful of rice into my mouth. After we ate breakfast kei started a bath. This whole morning he seemed off. After we lost the baby he hasn't given me much eye contact, and his voice changed into a somber tone.

"Come one, you need to shower." He said, again no eye contact. He just stared at the floor.

"No" I said, trying to see if he would look up at me, he didn't."Tadashi, get . into . the . fucking . shower . " he growled. His voice was cold as stone, the words cutting into me like a knife. I could feel hot tears starting to well up in the sides of my eyes. I bit down on my lip hard, trying not to cry. "Fine, I'll go." Now, my tone as cold as his. I got up and rushed off to the bathroom, my hands trying covering my face so he won't see the tears streaming down it.

"Tadashi, wait...I'm sorry" he turned around and grabbed my wrist. "I'm so, so, sorry, I...I don't mean that, I'm really sorry..."

"I'm taking a shower, you happy?" My voice was shaky, full of fear, hurt, anger. I pulled my wrist out from his grip and continued walking to the bathroom. As soon as I got into it and closed the door I collapsed to the ground sobbing. After a good amount of crying, I undressed myself and laid in the bath.

I could hear kei opening the door. "Tadashi?" His voice was soft, caring, like it was before. I let out a soft sigh. "Come in" he came in and knelt down besides the bath. He grabbed my hands to hold.

"Tadashi, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that to you. That wasn't fair, you've been going through this all by yourself, all I've been doing is hiding. I can't even look at you without feeling like I was such a dick to you. I'm really sorry Tadashi. I shouldn't be the one acting like this, you lost the baby, not me."

"SHUT UP TUKKI" I yelled. He was startled a bit. "Look, yes I may have been carrying the baby, but you were also going to be a parent. You were going to be a dad. I saw the way your eyes lit up when I showed you the tests. It's okay to be grieving, you lost a a baby too." Once again, tears were streaming down both of our faces. Kei laid his head onto our intertwined hands. "I'm sorry Tadashi." I lifted his head up and off my hands with my free hand and gently placed our fore heads together. I starred into his golden eyes that were now glossed over with tears. "I love you kei" "I love you to Tadashi"

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