✿ Wilted flower ✿ | keabedo

9.

"Albedo?"
Keaya asked to confused and concerned to fully ask what had just happened.

I clear my throat stalling, still trying to figure out just how I'd word it.

"How long has this been going on"
Keayas concern only grew

"Uh awhile"
I say ashamed I had hid it for so long

"But- why didn't you tell me?"
Keaya said his eyes staring to gloss with tears

"I couldn't.. I didn't want you to worry"
I half lie, it's also be a I knew he'd ask who I liked.

"Albedo you idiot! Your going to live right?"
Keaya said his voice slightly hopefull

"It's hanahaki.. so no I don't think I will"
I say simply

As soon as those words left my mouth, he started to cry.
I couldn't bare to look it was my fault for making him so upset, I just wish I had told him earlier.

"But it's fictional right? So it must be something else? You'll be alright"
Keaya tried to convince himself through his tears.

"I thought it was to.. but it's the only explanation"
I say still trying not to make eye contact

"So your going to tell them right?"
Keaya pleaded

I bit my tongue glancing over keaya who's eyes had gone red from crying

"No, I can't"
I say truthfully I just couldn't bring myself to say it to him

"But this is your life at risk! I don't want to lose you Albedo"
Keaya spoke gently he placed a hand on my cheek. I could see the hurt in his eyes, the hurt I had caused.

"They don't like me, and we had a fight so.. it doesn't matter if I tell them or not"
I brush him off, I was going to die either way.

Keaya sighed, before he wrapped his arms around me.
I pulled myself closer to him and finally I let myself cry in front of him.

"Albedo.. I've lost a lot of people I don't want you to be one of them"
Keaya paused

"Please tell them, just try for me?"
He pleaded

I could feel his tears drip down onto my shirt, I felt awful for making him cry.
But it was so difficult I didn't want to ruin our friendship.
But then again if I died would it not be the same, If there was even a chance he could like me back..

I stood up catching keaya by surprise, he stood across from me.

I took a deep breath I was going to say what I had been fearing this whole time..

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"Keaya.. I"
I bit down on my tongue fearing what he'd reply

               

                   "Keaya I like you!"